Friday, November 19, 2010

IM PREGNANT!

I havent written anything this week, my mind has been in another world because,

I'M PREGNANT!!! OMG I just found out that I am five weeks pregnant and my husband and I could not be happier! Words can not express the joy that is our hearts.

Thank you God for blessing me with this wonderful crazy life!!!!

Friday, November 12, 2010

SWEET SWEET FRIDAY!

TGIF!!!! NEED I SAY MORE???

OK well maybe just a little, like what am I up to this weekend???
Well tomorrow I have a staff meeting at 10 am (I'm not to happy about by the way)
then off to a baby shower.
And finishing out Saturday with my wonderful husband and his kiddo's. Dinner and shopping!!!

Sunday Katie (the bff) and I are gettin out of town for the day and going shopping!!! Cant wait!

TONIGHT FOR DINNER

Tonight I was busy so I just went to subway but hey at least its good for you. :)
have a wonderful night!!!

                                                                                                       Desiree

Thursday, November 11, 2010

What a great day!

As I have said before I work in daycare,normally I would say I have had a great day with my smiling babies BUT NOT TODAY!!! It was picture day. I HATE PICTURE DAY WITH A PASSION!!! Six babies, and two outfit changes each....NOT FUN!!!!

On the other hand my hubby did not have to work today YAY! I love when he doesn't have to work cause he takes me to work which means I get to spend more time with him and he also helps me get the center up and running. Then he comes back at we got eat on my lunch break and i get to see his handsome face when I get off.  It makes me one happy woman!

Well my wonderful friend Margie knew that he was off today so being the sweet person she is she let me get off at 1:30 and she stayed until 2:30. Awesome friend let me tell you. So the hubby and I went and picked up some of my favorite little people. My niece Jaidyn and my nephew Caleb. We took them to the mall. Jaidyn is eight going on sixteen, the mall is her favorite place to go so every Thursday that's what we do. Just an extra bonus that Uncle Sean got to come to. :) Uncle Sean is Caleb's favorite person well next to Aunt DD that is ;). My niece's and nephew's are very special to me. They are the children that God has blessed me with, not as a mother but the next best thing. Being an aunt to these eight kids is a feeling I can not express. Whenever I have had a bad day I go see these babies, they can turn any sad face happy. I love spending time with each one of them. They are growing up so fast and I don't want to miss a thing in there beautiful lives.

Today has been a pretty good day with the exceptions of picture day.(LOL) I am looking forward to this weekend with my family and my bff, I'm ready to go shopping Katie got a little list going on! HEHE




TONIGHT FOR DINNER

Sadly enough we had Arbys but hey it was pretty good!

Have a wonderful night              
                                 
                             
                                                                                                       Desiree

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

This time of year

Trees changing color, Pumpkin EVERYTHING, Apple Cider, Hay rides, Campfires, Sweaters, actually needing a sleeping bag when you go camping these are just some of the many things I love about this time of the year. Could you imagine how beautiful it would be looking off of a mountain somewhere. Or being up in a air plane looking down into all of the trees. BEAUTIFUL!

Anyways I love this time of year it is my favorite and if I had it my way it would never change. You don't have to mow your grass or de-weed your garden all you have to do is clean up the leaves and then JUMP into the pile! :) That's my favorite memory from when I was a kid. We had three really big trees in our front yard and my dad would give all four of us a rack and tell us to make the piles as big as we could get them, then..... JUMP IN! Sure the leaves were now all over again but man it was fun! I miss being a kid. People would look at me funny if I was to start jumping in a pile of leaves by myself at 23 years old (lol) but hey I do have my step kids this weekend nobody would think anything of it if there were kids doing it too. They would just think look at that mom playing with her kids, hum that's an idea!

Well I'm gonna take advantage of this beautiful weather and go up to my moms house and sit outside for awhile!

TONIGHT FOR DINNER

Chicken Crescent Roll ups, Corn, and a big colorful Salad!
Have a great night everybody!

                                                                                                       Desiree

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

 Today has kinda been a hard day for me. My mind has been lost in thought for the better half of today.

 See last year on Nov.22 I was in a pretty bad car accident and was taken to the hospital. There I spent 12 hours in the emergency room. As soon I walked into the door they put a brace around my neck and had me take THREE pain pills. I'm not sure the names of them but all I know is that they knocked me out!!! Three hours later they gave me another pill and two hours after that they gave me one more. The nurse came in and asked me if I was in pain, I said "my head is killing me" I remember she said "REALLY"? Like there is no way!!! But anyways my head was killing me and considering all the pain meds they had given me the doctors were concerned that I may have had bleeding around my Brain so they ordered a cat-scan. The nurse came in a asked me if there was anyway that I could be pregnant? Let me remind you that at this point I had been in that ER for 10 hours and have had many pain meds and then they finally decided that they were going to ask me if there was a chance.   My response was "yes" so they did a blood test.


My husband had been in and out of my room throughout the day trying to keep my family informed so when the nurse walked back in he was out in the waiting room. Ha I remember the nurse asking me "where's the man that was with you"? (we were not married then) I told her he was out in the waiting room and she said "OK cause honey your pregnant"!!!!!! WHAT?????????? WHAT??????????? WHAT????????? this was all I could say. We were not trying, actually we were doing the exact opposite.I thought she was playing a trick on me or something. I had been on birth control since I was 14. So like I said WHAT?????????? The nurse said "whats wrong honey? Is he not the father"???? OMG!!!! "OF COURSE HE IS" said. Stupid lady not everybody sleeps around ughhhhhhhh!


Well within seconds I passed back out and when I woke up he was at my side. He looked up at me and I said "we're pregnant"! WOW!!! He just sat there for a moment and then tears. He was crying. He was so happy. He said "we're gonna have the most beautiful baby anybody has ever seen". We both just sat there crying, words could not express the amount of joy that was in our hearts.


January 4 (My husbands birthday) I decided to take a PT because I hadn't since the ER did a blood test on me but I was thinking I wanted one for the baby book. So I drove up to the store and bought one. I came home and took it. Negative! I got back in my car and went back in the store and this time I bought a pack of three. Negative Negative Negative!!!


My husband came home to find me in the floor crying my eyes out. I couldn't get up. I couldn't talk. All I could do was cry. He then looked on the counter and knew what I was crying about. He jumped up and called the Doctor. They said that most likely it just didn't take. But went ahead and had me come in the next morning. That night instead of making my husband his birthday dinner and eating his birthday cake all we did was cry.


The next morning I went to the Doctor. And Negative!


Why has been the question on my mind ever since that day. Why me? We weren't even trying to have a baby we had already made a plan to wait five years. We wanted to be married for awhile (by the way we had gotten married shortly after we found out that we were going to have a baby, we were already planning the wedding before I found out but decided we would rather spend the money on a house and baby stuff then on a wedding) but after we found out that we were going to be parents that was all we could think about. We loved that baby from the moment we knew it was there. 


My husband and I then decided that we did not want to wait, we wanted that baby so bad and it was taken from us and all we knew was we wanted that again. So we have "been trying" since January. 10 months of trying and NOTHING! Every month I get excited thinking this could be it. And then good ol mother nature has to show up and I spend the next week in consist thought of why?


Yesterday my friend Katie sent me an email ( posted below). I read this with tears falling down my cheeks. Last night when my husband got home I showed it to him and he cried. We know that God has a reason for everything he does but we both still don't understand! I guess its not really for us to understand and I guess we should be thankful. We only had a chance to love that baby for a very short time unlike a lot of people who get to carry their child full term and then have to say their good-byes but i still have the whys in the back of my head like I'm sure most mothers who have had to say good-bye do.

This was not the blog I intended to write today but this is what is on my mind today, at this moment. My husband I and are trying to deal with this still and to do our best to put it in Gods hands. God had his reason for taking our baby and one day he will answer that for us, but for now we are not going to give up we have faith that God will bless us with the most beautiful child someday until then I will continue to be all absorbed in all the other children God has created that I adore. If you have children thank God for them tonight. Make sure your child knows that you love them because you never know when God will decide it's time for your baby to go back home with him. And to those of you who have lost a child my thoughts and prayers are with you. I am truly sorry for your lost and I pray that God will help you during this time. One day we will all be with our babies again in Heaven.

                                                                                                                 Desiree

Monday, November 8, 2010

Yet another day :)

Well we made it through Monday give yourselves a pat on the back! How did my day go humm lets see.... i got up at 3:30am and made it to work at 6:00am. That's the part that SUCKS!!! I would so much rather sleep in then get up that dang early but I guess someone has got to do it.

 I work in daycare which I LOVE!!! Children to me have always been that thing in my life that makes living worth all the crap I have to put up with, it always has. I remember when my mom left my dad and moved us to an apartment, I was the APARTMENT BABYSITTER!!! While I was taking care of those babies I never seemed to remember that my parents were no longer together that I never saw my father or that my mother was gone working three jobs to take care of my siblings and I. All I knew is that my heart felt happy. Its still like that to this day children make me happy. I have eight niece's and nephew's and I have three step-children and I work in the infant room with six babies. I LOVE CHILDREN!

Anyways back on subject.... my day went great! Got to work at 6am and got off at 11:45am. I did a little thrift shopping and found some great things to re-do for Christmas presents :). Then came home and found NO ONE HERE!!! I love it when that happens! Don't get me wrong I love my family but the feeling I get when I walk into my house and no one is home ahhhhh it makes me all warm inside :).

So then i decided I was going to try this blogging thing out. Ive never been much of a blogger but my bff is and she is always telling me about theses blogs she reads and how she decided to start writing a blog on her daily life and one day print it out and I thought "that is a great idea" so here I am, how am I doing so far?

Today's blog is going to end with whats for dinner.


Tonight for dinner we are going to be having.... Lemon Rosemary Chicken, Mashed Potatoes,Steamed Green Beans,and Steamed Carrots YUMMY!!!! Hope everybody has a wonderful Monday night I'm excited for my next blog hope I didn't bore you to much. ;)