Monday, October 31, 2011

My Journey

Well last Wednesday I went had the scope ran. Every went ok I guess well ok meaning I didn't die!!! LOL (NO SERIOUSLY I WAS WORRIED) Anyways the did however discover the I have a hyrnina. I had no idea. I never had any pain but anyways my Doctor said it was nothing to worry about and that he can fix it when he goes in to place "The Band".

So as of my last post I said I lost 7 lbs well according to their scale I had only lost 4! ERRR damn Doctor scales they freaking suck!!!!  After talking with my Doctor he has decided to go ahead and let me get The Band put on after I have lost 7 lbs. So as of today this morning on my scale... I've got 1 1/2 to go.

Time is counting down and I am starting to get really excited! I'm ready for the new me.

Monday, October 24, 2011

My Journey

After loosing one grandmother to diabetes and watching another go through life with it, I decided that I did  not want to be the next one in my family. That I was going to do something to lower my risk.  Ive done diet after diet and after years of failing at them I start researching "The Lap Band".

My husband and I went to a seminar about "The Lap Band" and I was completely sold!!! I walked out of the seminar that night and was determined that I was going to get this done. I went and meant with the Doctor one on one and still was sold.

Then I started thinking about all of the things that could go wrong and then wasn't so sold anymore. I'm not doing this to be skinny! (I'm not gonna lie and say that it wouldn't be nice but I just want to be healthy). And was it worth it to go under "the knife" to loose weight??? This was in the back of my mind for a while but I am happy to say that after a lot of thinking and speeching with my husband I have decided to go thought with it.

After being on Vacation for four days I have decided not to weigh in. :) I didn't do bad but............

Wednesday morning i go to have the scoop done and I'm sure they will weigh me before so ill let you know.

Monday, October 17, 2011

My Journey

Well since my last post I have lost another 3 pounds! Making 7 pounds total!!!

I am still considering whether or not I will have The Band done. The last two days I have been a little better with the discussion to go through with it, but I'm not sold.

I am actually considering asking my Doctor if he will preform it while I am awake. You know like they do when you have a c-section. I figure if they can cut you open and take out a baby while you are awake then why can't they cut you open and put a band around your stomach.

I am going to call the office and see if I can get in as soon as we get back from Texas so that I can talk to him a little bit more and ask about doing it while I am awake.

 Until next Monday...

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Whats going on

Just some random things that have been going on...

Still deciding on The Lap Band....

Leaving for Texas in a few days and I can not wait! It has been forever since I went on Vacation and this will not only make Eviee's first, but it will also make the first for Sean and I together. We have been on little road trips but not an actual Vacation. Some places we are going while we're in Texas are...

The Beach in Galveston
Moody Gardens in Galveston (It's three glass pyramids each with it's own theme).
Baybrook Mall in Houston (THREE STORY MALL!!!!) (This is will be my highlight I'm sure LOL)
The Galleria Mall in Houston (Another hugh mall)

And Sean is going to take me and show me where he grew up. Come on Wednesday!!!

Eviee's hair is also turning red!!! Or at least it's red in some lighting like mine but it sure is cute!!!!!

Eviee laughed out loud this past week for the first time while she was awake!!! She has laughed a few times while she was sleeping but not while awake. I was putting her in her car seat and said something to her her and she just started giggling. Then Wed. night Sean was helping his mom cover her pool and she thought that was the funnest thing she had ever seen!!!! She laughed FOREVER!!!! Yes I did get it recorded! LOL

Eviee also has learned to roll her self over. She has only done it once and no mommy didn't get to see it :(
She was laying down for a nap (on her back) and when she woke up Sean went in there to get her and came back asking if I had laid her on her belly, (sigh) I wish I could have seen it but it'll happen again and mommy will be ready with the camcorder!!!

My milk supply is back up. Unfortunately I had to get help with some meds from my OB but it is important to me to be able to breastfeed her and thanks to the meds she is now down to one formula bottle a day!!!!

Anyways our life is pretty clam right now THANK GOODNESS so this is all! :)

Monday, October 10, 2011

My Journey

As I posted last Monday my Doctor told me that I must loose 14 lbs before he will do the surgery. Well I'm happy to report that I have lost 4 lbs!!!!! YAY!!!! Just 10 to go.

What Ive been eating ...

Breakfast: Light and fit yogurt with Grape nut flakes and Coffee (I will never give up coffee just saying)
Snack: 100 cal pks & Water
Lunch: Salad & Diet Dr Pepper
Snack: 100 cal pks & Water
Dinner: Salad &Water

Four pounds is good!!!

We are leaving for Texas in eight days so I am hoping to loose another four pounds before we go and then the rest before the end of the month.

I have to say that I have started getting really scared about having this done.

I am one of those people who always think the worst is going to happen. I mean seriously, it's sad but true and I cant help but think that something is going to go wrong with either the scoop procedure or the surgery.(both you are put to sleep) I'm scared to death that I will not wake up from it.

I'm doing this for myself but I'm also doing this from my daughter. I want to be here to see her grow up. I want to be the mommy that runs around the play ground with her but what happens if I don't wake up???

I'm doing this so that I can be a better mommy to her but what if mommy doesn't come back?

Ive had the scoop thing done several times but when you are 16 years old the only thing you are worry about is when you can go shopping or talk to your boyfriend. But when you are 24 and you are married and have a child everything changes. I am so worried that maybe mommy is making a mistake. What if the last time I ever see my daughters face is in the waiting room at the hospital because mommy was selfish and wanted to be skinny. Is this worth it??? 

If I sit back and think about it long enough I wonder what if I get a trainer? What if I go back to weight watchers. What if I just try harder. Maybe I can loose all the weight I need to, to be healthy all by myself.

Maybe I cant go through with this.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

2 Months old

Lets see...

Thursday Eviee will be 12 weeks! Which means next Friday she will be 3 months!!!! Where has the time gone???

She is getting so big. She weighs 11 1/2 lbs and is 22 inch's long. She has finally just this last week out grown her newborn clothes. :(  Which by the way I really need to go take those clothes out of her closet. Maybe one day HA!!! Not sure that im ready to remove the Little Bitty Clothes yet. This could be the one and only time I ever have newborn clothes in my house so maybe they will stay for a while, the child does have two closets so its not like were missing the space.... hummm well see. :)


 She is smiling ALL THE TIME! And "talking" oh my goodness she has the sweetest little voice. This morning she sat on her daddy's lap just "talking away" it was the cutest thing. Definitely a camcorder moment ;) I expect she will be "giggling" any day now and I can not wait!!!!

She is starting to really recognize mommy's and daddy's voice. This morning I was in the kitchen getting coffee and I said something to Sean and man she turned her head looking for me. LOVE IT!!!!

Not sure if I have blogged about this before or not but Eviee started out strictly on breast milk but we noticed that she was pooping non-stop. Seriously like 18 times in one day. And had really bad gas and was getting dehydrated. Being as I had to be on soy milk as a baby I decided that we would try it for a week and see if things got better. And they did. But being the person I am, and knowing that the  breast milk is so much better for her I decided to try half and half for a couple of days. She did fine on that. So after a couple of days of this I decided to try nursing her all day and see what happens (I hated giving her formula and wanted to make sure that the breast milk was really the problem and not just some bug or something before we make formula a must) well same result! She pooped all day and had really bad gas and just didn't seem so well. So back to half and half. (Well we would do either half and half or I would nurse her one feeding and then five her a formula bottle the next feeding) During this time I couldn't help but feel so bad that I was giving her formula. Really like I would cry about it. I wanted what was best for my baby and had made up my mind before she got her that we would do breast milk and breast milk only so long as my body would make it. One day I decided to call and talk with her Doctor about this and he said it sounded to him like she was Lactose and Tolerate. He suggest that since she seemed to do fine on half and half to continue to with it. That any breast milk is better then none. But he also suggest that they every couple of weeks I should try and nurse her for the day and see if it's not just maybe her "GUT" hasn't developed enough. So about three weeks ago I did. I nursed her for days and she had no problems AT ALL!!!! YAY!!! (We did however give her two-four formula bottles a day just to make sure she wouldn't get dehydrated or anything) I guess it was her "GUT" and not a lactose problem. Thank goodness.

The only problem is that now my milk seems to be trying to dry up! Ladies do not listen to everything you read or everything people tell you. Just because you are nursing often and or pumping doesn't mean that your body will continue to make milk!!! Ive been breastfeeding for almost 3 months now and Eviee is almost off formula all together which means she is now nursing a lot more and my milk is now trying to go away. I have heard this happening to a lot of women. I heard of a lady who's milk went away after strictly nursing for 7 months!!!! Anyways so now I am nursing Eviee every time she seems hungry (usually about every three hours) but am having to top off with formula bottles again because she is not getting enough breast milk. I am also pumping in between her feedings. I am taking a natural supplement that is suppose to help with your milk supply too.I am doing everything you are supposed to do and yet I havent seen any good results. My milk doesnt seem to be "growing".  I am praying that my milk does not go away and that I can produce enough milk to take Eviee off formula altogether. Now that I know she can handle it breast feeding is what I really want to do. We are going to Texas the 19th and I would love nothing more then to go without bottles and without formula!!!! Pray for me please LOL

On another note Eviee got really bad sick this week. We had X-rays done and everything. Turns out it was just a really bad cold. Thank goodness! But my poor baby she has been running a fever for days now off and on and her little nose is running like crazy and she is coughing alot. Being that she is only two months old I did not think they would give her any meds but our wonderful doctor did!!! We love him!!! It does seem to be helping her. Hopefully we can get her all better by Texas time!!!! I also started her on Aloe Vera Juice which is great for allergies and sinus problems (along with alot of other benifits). It truely does work wonders and im hopeing after she gets over all this junk that the aloe juice and breast milk will keep her healthy!  Ha speeching of Aloe juice in the mornings Ive been makeing her what I like to call "Power bottles" lol its three once's of breast milk and one once of aloe juice. LOL.

Halloween is coming up and everybody keeps asking me what Eviee is going to be...well I cant make up my mind so when I decide I will let you know!

O yea, more pictures to come. We go Friday to get her 12 week pictures!!! I'm so excited!!!!

OK well I think had more to say but I've been kinda rambling on so well stop here. Have a great day!!!

Monday, October 3, 2011

My Journey

OK so Thursday I went and saw my Lap Band Doctor. I got GREAT news! My insurance is going to cover the surgery 100%!!! How amazing is that, gotta love haveing two insurance's. Anyways they will cover all of it but their are some things they require first....

You must have a BMI of 30 or above (Mines 46.6)
You must have at least six months of dieting under the care of a professional such as an MD, Weight Watchers,etc.... (Weight Watchers for me)
And the last one which sucks so freaking bad... Psych evaluation.

The reason for the BMI is well basically they want to make sure your fat enough LOL no really that's what it is. You have to be so much over weight.

The six months of dieting under a professional is because they want to make sure that you have tried other methods before and that you are not using this as a easy way out.

And the evaluation well when The Lap Band came out that was the requirement for everybody. Now it just depends on your insurance. And mine while they are paying 100% they still suck! They want to make sure that you are committed to changing as The Lap Band is a tool to teach you. I just hope they don't discover that I'm really an insane crazy person!!!! ;) LOL if they do discover this I WILL give them the names of the men that made me this way LMAO!!!!!

So October 26 I will have the scope done (NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS). I have had this done some many times its insane.
And October 31 I go for my evaluation (Pray for me)

O yea and my doctor wants me to loose 14lbs before he will do it. This is because when you loose weight your liver shrinks and is supposed to make it easier on your body during suregrey. So Once I loose the 14lbs and the doctor gets all of my results back on everything then I will have my surgery.

Im going to do my best and loose the weight by the end of the month so that I can have it done before Thanksgiving. That is my goal the only problem is .... I'm going on Vacation the 19th of October. Hummm

I am so excited and can not wait to change my life. I am excited for all of the changes that will come with having this done. It truely will give me a whole new life.