Friday, December 28, 2012


 So back in November Sean got a speeding ticket on his way home from work one night. He comes in all pissed off and all I could say was "I told you so". The main street out by our old house is 30mph but Sean he thinks 30 means 45or more depending on his mood. Anyways I always tell him to slow down and that one day he would get a ticket and what do you know that day came. Well anyways fast forward to the 26th of December at 8:00 pm I'm sitting at the island when all of a sudden I remember I didn't pay Sean's ticket!!! Holy freaking mother of monkeys!!!! (yep that's what I said) I don't know why we didn't pay it when  he got it but we didn't and the 26th was the last day. What makes it worst was I called the judge here in Greenwood because the damn ticket was so high and it was Sean's first ticket (at least since we've been together) and planned on telling him that his cop could have at least gave him a warning but when the judge got on and asked me if my husband was guilty. I laughed and then answered yes!!! (Sean would not be to happy about that) The judge asked me what was so funny and I just told him "sir I tell my husband he's gonna get a ticket everyday" "as much as I don't want to pay this he did do it and honestly it's probably a good thing, now maybe he'll slow down". The judge kinda laughed and gave me a discount! HA!!!!! NO LIE! So here we are I got a discount on Sean's ticket because I'm just pretty awesome like that and then I don't pay it. Can't blame that on Sean. He works so much and I told him I would take care of it. BAD BAD WIFE!!!! So anyways I did pay it but wasn't told if he had a warrant out for his arrest and I have been kinda freaking out over it so I talked to a cop friend who told me to call up there and ask. I WAS SCARED TO DEATH! But thank the lord they said no. And assured me that if there was going to be one there would have been that next morning! So there you have it I almost got my husband arrested, How about that!!!!

Pictures from Christmas

Christmas morning! She wasnt sure what to think.
Humm what do I do with this???
Then Logan woke up!
 Eviee handed everyone their presents this year! She did a great job and looked super cute!
Opening up some presents.
                                                      The house covered in snow!
So pretty!
Out by the pond!

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Exhausted to say the least

Well we are finally in our new home. It feels so weird and different. I should be used to it considering I've spent alot of my time here over the last five years but I really feel like we are visiting and at any given time my mil is going to come home and want to know what happened to all of her belongings. LOL

The house is in order I suppose. I still have a few boxes to unpack but for the most part we are done. Ive been cleaning like a crazy person. Its almost like I am "nesting" LOL. Anywhere we move I spend the first month or so cleaning until I feel comfortable enough to walk around bare foot HA!!!! I have issues I know.

I started putting Eviee's room together Tuesday night. Her room is the only room with pictures on the wall and will most likely be the only one for awhile. Ive got to go shopping and get some new stuff. New house = new stuff HAHAHA!!!!

We did get some new leather living room furniture. Both the couch and loveseat recline which of course has now stolen my husband but he wanted a recliner so I got him four!!!!!! I am a great wife I'll tell ya! hehehe

So I love love love my dining room table but compared to the size of my new dining room my table looks like it is made for midgets or something. It looks absolutely ridiculous in here. That being said if you know of anyone who needs a new solid wood black in color with six chairs I will be selling it in January after I go buy me a new one.

I am in love with my mantel!!!! It never made since to me to hang stockings on the wall ya know???

I'm happy to be in our new house but I am also dreading everything that is to come. We have alot of updating to be done and honestly Sean nor I are really handy LOL good thing my step daddy can do anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He will be much needed in the near future.

As soon as I can locate my camera I will do a house post full of pictures so those few of you who care what my house looks like.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012


Fair warning. This post is going to be all over the place.

So its 5:11 am and I've been up for a while now. Its been a long time since I wasn't able to sleep and I think it's because I just have so much anxiety lately. We are moving in to the new house this Saturday which that alone has me full of all kinds of emotions (good and bad). Our current house is an absolute mess and has been for the last few weeks because of packing. I really just can't get used to a "dirty" unorganized house, it's just not in my blood. LOL. I am counting down the hours until we are settled  and I feel comfortable and safe in the new house. I know it will take alot my anxiety away.

I mentioned in my last post that there may or may not be a new addition in to our family. Let me just say that it seriously cracks me up by how many people thought I was having another baby. I do not have many "followers" to my blog but I link it up to FB and goodness did I get some messages after that post. Y'all seriously not everything is about babies LOL. No the new addition will be a dog. We had a poodle which I loved. She was my first baby but around the time Eviee turned 2 months we started noticing that she seemed to be having problems breathing around Lola (our poodle) and so we just thought it would be best for her to go live with my MIL until we could be sure of it. Well needless to say right after Lola left us Eviee was doing great so we just gave Lola to my MIL and haven't really given much thought to another dog since, that is until I had this dream (14 months later  Eviee has no problems being around dogs)

I do not dream very often and if I do I don't remember them but this dream I remembered all to well and it has had my stomach in knots ever since. This dream has played over and over in my head at least 100 times. I can not seem to forget it and it seriously has me so shaken up.( I am not going to say what happened as I do not want offened anyone nor do I want to write it out but it was awful) Before telling Sean about it in detail and even more so after, I decided that we needed to think about safety. Honestly I never really given much thought to it other then are my doors and windows locked but now I am seriously thinking about it and problary over thinking it but. My first thought was getting an alarm system. So we have research and decided on what we will get but I also decided that we need a dog. A big dog! Simply because dogs will hear things way before you do and there is just something comforting about that. We want a dog that will make a great family dog but also a great protector. I love my little poodle but she would just lick you to death or maybe bite your ankles LOL. So I have been researching dogs left and right and I believe we are going to go with a boxer. I have a boxer/pit mix that I have had since I was 15. (she is at my parents house) She was 4 months old when we got her and she has been the best dog ever! She is such a great family dog and protector. Which is two very common traits I'm boxers and actually in pits but due to the stereo type pits have we will not be getting a pit. (its funny how things change when you have kids. I LOVE LOVE LOVE pits and so does Sean. We both truly believe it is all in how you raise them as to how they will turn out. I mean if I wanted to I could turn a lab or poodle into a fighting dog but my love for pits does not even began to come close to the love I have for my daughter and Sean's children and we just simply can not take that chance). So that is our new addition as soon as we get settled in we will find a boxer for our family. A puppy so that we can raise it with Eviee and Sean's kids.

Speeching of babies I swear the next person to ask me if we are going to have another baby I am going slap. I totally understand why people want to know and I myself used to be one of those people who was always asking and I still ask from time to time but I now know why it is so annoying. At least once a week someone either ask if we are going to have another baby or tells me we have to have another baby. Even the older kids. If I tell them I have a surprise they think its a new baby. Umm no it was just we're going out for ice cream darn it!!!! I get it I really do but people you just have no idea unless you have been in my shoes. Ok my whole life all I ever wanted was to have a child of my own and the first shot at that ended in a miscarriage. I finally got my perfect little angel that I longed for my whole life. She is everything I ever wanted and more. After I had Eviee I had another miscarriage. So this is what I have to say so that you know and I don't have to slap you. My husband and I are both loving and enjoying our time with Eviee. She fills our hearts with so much love that right now we can not imagine having another child, nor do we want to take the chance and possibly having yet another miscarriage. We want to give Eviee the world. But we are both logical people and know that one day we may change our minds and decide that Eviee needs another full blooded sibling to actually grow up with. That being said when Eviee turns two we will sit down and discuss another baby. If at that time we both still do not want another child Sean will go get the ol snippety snip. If however we BOTH decided we do want another one then there shall be another baby Brazil. But in the meantime I have the right to change my mind as many times as I want with out judgement from you. I can pin as many pins as I want on pinterest about all things baby without your mind trailing off thinking "yep she's gonna have another one". And I deserve you to respect my choice no matter what it is. I am a grown ass woman who is married to love of my life. We have the prefect marriage with plenty of love for another child whether it is planned or not. I normally do not speech of money but because I have heard it from one two many people we make more damn money then alot of people and trust me we can afford alot more then we lead you to believe so mind your own damn business. Whew.... just saying that really makes a girl feel better.

I guess I will reserve the rest for another post. HAHA!!!!
Really though writing this blog really does make me feel better. Especially when I have something that I need to say but don't want to piss someone off. I write it on here and they read it and sit and think to themselves "is she talking about me"? Yep I am! Now shut your mouth!!!!

Hope y'all have a good day!!!! Im off to get ready for my Lap Band appt.

Thursday, November 29, 2012


We had a great Thanksgiving. We went to my mother in laws, my moms, and my dads. Lets just say that Sean and I both are looking forward to next year and having Thanksgiving and Christmas at our house again. Neither one of us like going place to place.

We tried to take some family pictures for our Christmas cards but they did not turn out the way I wanted so who knows you may just get a card with Eviee on it! LOL no really :)

Eviee is getting so big. Talking like crazy. Every day she says a new word. She now has ten teeth and two more on the way. She really is my little sunshine. Never thought I could be so in love with someone. <3

We did get out tree up at the new house this week. (that's the good thing with moving into your mil house LOL) and I even got some presents under the tree. Unfortunately the tree and stockings will probably be the only decorations we get up this year but I'm ok with that.

The count down is officially on. We only have 10 days until we "really" move. I have already been moving things over but we still have alot more to go.

Ive been walking four miles about four days a week and I can tell it is working. Inches are flying off. Now if I can just keep it up through the winter.

My lap band is actually doing ok this week. I think I may have finally found the secret to eating with this dang thing.

Speeching of I am down 57 lbs. I do not think I will make my goal of 80 by the end of the year but...

We may or may not be adding another member to our family!!!!!!!

Thursday, November 8, 2012


My little noodle is getting so big and learning so much right now. I know I say it all the time but I wish time would slow down just a bit! Here's an update on what she's been up too lately.
  • She is 6 days a way from being 16 months old.
  • Walking!!!!! (almost running)
  • Drinks only from a sippy cup
  • She now knows how to climb out of her crib and can do it in a matter of seconds. She will be in a toddler bed as soon as we get to the new house.
  • Talking like crazy. She is also already putting two words together like the other day we went to see Nana and she said "the dogs" and she always is saying "whats this" LOL I love hearing her talk!!!
  • She has been feeding herself for some time now but we started giving her a spoon or fork and shes actually really good with it!!!!
  • Loves to be outside and gets so upset when you bring her back in.
  • Wearing anywhere from 6 months clothing up to about 18 months but they are still really big.
  • She weighs 23.4 lbs
  • Is 28 inches long
  • Can tell/show you where her hair, nose, mouth, teeth, tongue, belly, and toes are.
  • She still loves books and loves to sit in my lap while I read to her.
  • We still rock her to sleep
  • We did turn her car seat around in the Armada the other day! She is a lot happier girl now that she where we are going instead where we have been LOL.
  • Still eating mostly organic
  • Still only drinking unsweetened organic soy milk and water.
  • Still can not tolerate cows milk
  • She has whats called chronic hives so she is always breaking out. What sucks about this is that we never know if its from something or just the hives. We will go back and see the allergists in a couple of months.
  • She is the biggest mommas girl!!! I love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • She loves leaves right now. They are falling off the trees and anytime she is outside she grabs a handful of them.
  • Loves going down the slides at the park.
  • Loves to swing.
  • Still loves taking baths
  • Doesn't like to brush her teeth. Poor thing I just keep telling her we don't want to be like those other kids with silver all over our teeth!
  • Favorite thing to eat right now is Strawberries and blueberries.
Eviee is getting big so fast. Sometimes I have to remind myself the dishes can wait, go play with her. I love to have clean house and honestly can't stand a dirty one but for the last several months my house has seen dirty A LOT! My little girl is so much more important then the sink full of dishes. They can wait but she isn't going to stop growing. Every minute it seems like she is learning something new and I refuse to miss anything. I honestly will never be able to thank Sean enough for working so hard so that I can be home with her everyday. I will never get this chance again. She will never be 15 months and learning where her toes are again so I'm going to sit on the floor every day with her. I'm going to read her as many books as she wants me or will let me read to her while she is sitting in my lap. I'm gonna take her outside and watch her smile when she bins down to feel the grass and you better believe that I'm gonna have my camera going ninety to nothing capturing all of those memories because its never going to happen for the first time again.  I was lucky enough to be there for alot of other kids when their parents couldn't be. I have seen so many other peoples kids do things for the first time and it was so special but now I am blessed to be able to see my child's first. I know I will not always get to see all of those first but I'm gonna do my best to see the ones that matter most.

Eviee you still make me cry every day. I am so proud you are my daughter. You are so smart, so sweet, and you always having me laughing. You are the funniest little girl. Grandma says daddy and I are still in "aww" over you like we were the day you were born. I wanted to be a mommy my whole life so yes I waited for you for a long time and I will always be in "aww" over you. You are my baby girl, my noodle and I love you more then words can express.
I should also add that is it almost impossible to get a good picture of her now that she is walking!

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Day to Vote

Well today was the "BIG" day. Yep voting day. And HELL NO I didn't vote. I have never voted and most likely will never vote. I really just could care less. Is that bad??? I mean I guess I should care about who is going to be running our country but honestly I just don't. And you will not hear me bitching about who won tonight or what he's going to do over the next four years.
(p.s. if you did not vote then you have NO FREAKING right to complain) (DAD)

People its time to get back to your normal life and stop blowing up my FB with your stupid political stats!

Have a happy night!!!

Sunday, November 4, 2012

To finish or not to finish

I find it funny when you try your hardest no think about something or someone you end up thinking about it or them All. Day. Long.

Why is this I wonder???

My sister and I got to talking about some people and things  in the past and for the last two days that is all I can think about. She says it is because we have unfinished business with them.

Unfinished business huh???? To finish or not to finish????

Thursday, November 1, 2012

2nd Halloween

Did Eviee really just celebrate her 2nd Halloween??? How is that even possible??? Time these days. When I was a kid it felt like time stood still when I wanted it to speed up and now I want it to stand still when it is speeding by..... anyway
So Halloween has come and gone and soon it will be Thanksgiving so here is a recap of our Halloween... We did not do a custom this year. (I don't even want to hear it)
We spent the day just hanging around the house. Eviee's little friend Lilah was here and my sister and dad came to visit us.
Eviee was being really silly showing everyone that not only is she walking now but she can also walk in circles LOL
Still a little off balance but shes doing GREAT!
            Seriously it doesn't get any cuter then that!!!!!!!
                              I love her pumpkin shirt!
She was pretty proud of herself for finding the trick or treat candy can't ya tell???
And this is what she did the rest of the night! Watching out for more trick or treaters!!!!
Winking at mommy ;)
Eviee really loves kids, of all ages and she got REALLY upset every time the trick or treaters left. She didn't understand why she didn't get to go with them. But over all I think she really had a good Halloween. I know Sean and I enjoy watching her get all excited every time kids would come up. She is so fun at this age! A few years down the road we may be trick or treating at your door ;)

Sunday, October 28, 2012

New House

Ok so this is the low down on the new house.

It is currently my MIL house. She is wanting to down size and since we decided we would stay here for another three or four years (four now) we need more room! We out grew our current house like six months ago so... We decided to take it over! The house would list for about $175,000 if she was to put it up for sale. The thing is that she doesn't owe much on it and it is already written in her "Will" to be left to Sean so we just thought we would take it over now!!!!!!

We are very excited!!!!

The house is only about 12 years old I think. So it's in really great shape it just needs some updating! So for the next four years that's what we are going to do that way when we are ready to move back to Tulsa or wherever (I would move anywhere) we can sell it for a VERY GOOD PROFIT! (at least that's the plan) And if it doesn't sell right a way its not a big deal cause we will/should have it paid off by then!!!

Can you even believe it??? I mean who gets the chance like this.

We are now on the count down. We move in a matter of weeks. Like 5 of 6!!!! Time to get packing!!!! And shopping :)

Friday, October 26, 2012

Five years of pure bliss

Five years ago today Sean and I went out on our first date. He took me to Lins Garden because he knew I loved Chinese Food and I hadn't been there. Sean was so nervous that he couldn't even eat. HA! I was nervous too but all those butterflies went away shortly after we got in the car to head to Lins. Sean has this way of making people around him feel so comfortable. I'm not even sure if he knows that or not but he does. Anyways my butterflies settled down and let me enjoy my dinner and company :) Sean on the other hand lets just say that was the one and only time I didn't see him eat when we've gone out LOL! (Poor Guy)

We have been through a lot together. We've seen each other through the worst times and the best. We have had lots of ups and downs but the ups out weigh the downs a thousand times over. We have not had a picture perfect relationship but its been perfect for us.

We each had a past. (neither side to lovely) We know that our past is what has made us who we are and even though I know we both would have loved to not gone through some of the things we did neither one of us would change it. Had we not gone through some of those things we my not be sitting here today celebrating five years together.

We are honest with each other 100%. At the end of the day we knew that we love each more then anything and being honest is the only way to have a healthy relationship.

Sean is my better half. Its kinda corny but he really does make me want to be a better person.

December 12 we will celebrate our third wedding anniversary. It is true what they say... Marry your best friend. I have never been more happy then I have these last five years. Sean is my soul mate. Mo anam cara.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

My heart goes out

Loosing your child in any way is something I do not wish upon anyone. Weather the woman is 5 weeks along or the child is 5 years old it is something no parent should ever have to experience.

My heart to aching this week for two families I know who had to say good bye to their child before they even had a chance to meet them. I know how this feels all to well and my heart is going out to them.

I wish there was something I could do to make this easier on them but the truth is there is nothing you can do and nothing that you can say to make it better.

I just hope that everyone who has a child knows what a miracle they are. Weather you have one child or 10 they are all a blessing. Make sure you tell them and show them everyday how much you love them because you never know when you will have to say good bye.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

In case you wanted to know

  • Something amazing happened yesterday.  I fit into two pairs of jeans that I have not worn in over two years and I didn't even have to dance to get into them! HAHAHA SO HAPPY!
  • I rode a bike last night. I have no idea when the last time I rode a bike was but it was pretty fun. Sean is wanting to buy me one so that we can put one of those baby seats on it and go riding as a family??? Humm we shall see.
  • Sean says I'm in pre hibernation mode. (sick season is near so that means Eviee and I will be spending 99% of our time at home).
  • The older kids are driving my nuts with wanting another baby. I swear every time they are hear we have at least an hour long talk about EACH DAY!!!!
  • My house looks like I run a small daycare. TOYS ARE EVERYWHERE and I wouldn't change it for the world :)
  • My house smells like I have apple cider cooking in the crock pot. I LOVE SCENTY!
  • Speeching of Apple cider. I freaking love it! Apple cider is to me what chicken noodle soup is to others. <3
  • I need to buy a new rug for my living room ASAP!
  • Sean is back at work today. SAD DAY :(
  • Ive started "our plan". You know the one you make when there is something big you want to do. Our plan- Moving back to Tulsa! Thank goodness I have some great friends up there to help me out!!!! Miss you guys so much I am so ready to be back home!
  • Eviee is going to be 15 months old in less then a week. CRAZY!
Well I guess thats enough info for one day! 

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Vacation Week

This week Sean is on Vacation. Yes I know we were supposed to be in GA but we decided it just wasn't the right time.

Monday Sean and I took Eviee to Tulsa. We love Tulsa so much and miss living there but we visit as often as we can. We usually try and meet up with friends while we're there but this time we just hung out be our shelves which was really nice.

When we got there we stopped and had lunch at one of our favorite spots then headed to the zoo. Eviee liked it for the most part but I don't think she'll be visiting the Rain Forest anytime soon. (LOL) Poor thing the second we walked in the door she started "telling" us she was not loving it and she wanted out. She didn't scream or really even cry but she was not happy. Other then that as long as we didn't get her to close to the animal's she was happy. It was the perfect day for the zoo and I can't wait for our next visit.

The rest of the week we have just spent alot of time being together and outside. I think we went to the park at least twice, we even visited the library! But the week also held some not so fun things like Eviee has double ear infections AGAIN! She always gets them when she is getting new teeth in. Thankfully her Doctor says it normal. Ive been worried they would want to put tubes in but its normal THANK GOODNESS. I also made a visit to my Doctor this week which lead me to wearing a heart monitor for A MONTH!!!! I'll write more on this later if something turns out but right now I'm ok  just walking around looking like a sickly person with wires hanging from me. LOL

Friday we got Sean's kids with the plan to cross off a few things from our fall bucket list.
  • Visit Pumpkin Patch
  • Go through a corn maze
  • Go on a hay ride
  • make fall cookies
  • have fancy coffee drinks

We had a lot of fun and I am already excited for next weekend to cross off a few more.

Sean's vacation is coming to an end. I am not happy but I guess it has to end sometime. I have enjoyed spending every second with him and I know Eviee has too. We don't get to see him much due to work so it is always nice to have him home with us.  

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Weekend equals wonderful

This weekend was absolutely wonderful!

Friday night we celebrated my step daughters birthday. We had a BBQ and I made chocolate cupcakes with mocha icing! O yea they were amazing!!!!
Joanna just turned 13 and she is our coffee holic. Up until about two months ago I wouldn't let them drink it simply because I feel they are too young for it. But after alot of begging from the girls we decided that they could have one cup in the morning with us but that was it.  Made them happy and this step momma got some major points ;)
We ended up getting her The Hunger Games Movie, a really cute razorback loofah and some crazy socks which she loves! Speeching of socks have y'all noticed how these kids are wearing miss match socks??? Totally drives me INSANE!!!!

Saturday we all woke early and went to "Paint the park pink" and guess what??? I forgot to take a picture of us looking O so NOT great in the ugly pink shirts and pink hard hats! Damn I'm so sad. LOL Anyways there were TONS of freaking people there, more then I really thought there would be but we had fun and I'm so glad all the kids were there to support a good cause with us. Sean and I are looking forward to doing many more walks and hey maybe one day a run????? We'll see.

After the picnic we headed over to Sean's family picnic. The kids play tons of games and rode rides and I, I played bingo and yet another year has gone by and I did not win ANYTHING! Kinda pissed about this but whatever.

That night my sister and her family came over and we visited and had dinner. I always love getting the family together. Just wish I had a bigger house but we always make it work!

Sunday Sean went back to work. The two older girls slept till 11 am but Eviee Logan and me were up nice and early. We hung out in my bed watching cartoons. I think Eviee was very happy with this since I have been limiting the amount of TV she watches lately.  It was fun having two kiddos cuddled up in bed with me.  That afternoon we headed to the mall for some lunch and a little shopping. This was the first time I have ever had all the kiddos by myself and it was really nice.

The weekend was over way to fast but I am looking forward to next week!!!! Hope y'all had a good weekend as well.

(ps for those of you wondering why I haven't posted many pictures lately I've been to busy to save them to the computer. But I intend on getting them all up for a big photo dump next week.)

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Fun things happening this week

  • Today (Tuesday) the weather was so nice I took Eviee to the park to play for the first time!!! So exciting!!! She still isn't walking on her own but she held my hand and walked the heck out of that park. She loved sliding down the slide!
  • Tomorrow night we have my step kids. We get them every Wednesday. We love seeing them and I love seeing them with Eviee and Eviee with them. She thinks they are just awesome especially her brother! They are best buds.
  • Thursday is Joanna's birthday. We will not see her Thursday I don't think but we will celebrate on Friday as it is our weekend with them.
  • Then Saturday morning Sean's work is sponsoring us along with other employees and family to walk for The Susan G. Coleman Foundation. I'm very excited about this. Sean and I have wanted to do something like this for a long time now . Everybody will be wearing pink shirts and HAHA pink hard hats. (my husband works for a steel mill so) anyways I'm not loving the hat things but I am excited. We are making all of the kiddos come too. I think it would be good for them. Pictures to come. 
  • After our walk is the annual family picnic that Sean's company holds every year. I have been to about 20 or more of these. My dad worked for the same company for over 22 years. The serve all kinds of good food that I wont/shouldn't eat. ;) They have tons and tons of games and things for the kids to do and my all time favorite is BINGO!!!! Call me an old lady but man they give away freaking 70 inch flat screen TVs among other great things so this momma will be sending both little red heads off to play with daddy while I play bingo!
  • Saturday night my family is coming over to visit and eat. Love having them over.
  • Then Sunday Sean's back to work and I think Eviee and I may drive up and see my parents. They are some camping fools let me tell you. They are camping with my grandparents and since it will be their last day there and no one will try and convince me to stay the night we're gonna go visit! Maybe :) 

That's all I have folks hope your week is going well!!!!! Two post in one day! Im getting good! LOL

Lap Band

I recently posted that I have been having a lot of problems with my lap band. I thought now would be a good time to write about since I'm wide awake and Eviee is still sleeping.

I have had my band for five and a half months now. I am down 45 lbs. (by the way I think I put 50lbs on fb maybe not? But if so that was a type-o). So 45 lbs and I am embarrassed to say that it is all thanks to the band. I mean I do eat pretty healthy but I have my days like any body else. I hate to say that I didn't put anything in to loosing the weight because all I have said was that I wasn't going to use this as a easy way out but I have.

I intended on getting the band and as soon as I was able I going to start exercising but it just never really happened. Here's my excuses for why I ha vent been exercising....
  • Eviee is awake from 430-500am every morning (this is very rare for her to be sleeping still)
  • I do not get much sleep at night so waking up earlier then her is not something I want to do
  • Its been to hot out during the day for my little red head. (you know the burn easy)
  • I'm too embarrassed to go "workout" outside or in a gym in front of alot of "fit" people watching me.
  • I have other things that I need to get done.
  • I keep saying when I loose another 20 lbs

The list goes on and on.

Some of the problems I have been having with the band are.
  • I throw up if I eat one bite to many. (this is a new thing)
  • If I eat even one bite of bread or pasta I am in dying pain because it gets stuck at the "new" opening of my stomach. Dying pain as in what I think a heart attack would feel like! NO LIE!
  • I have random pains where my port is (port-where my dr sticks the needle to fill my band)
  • My port is sitting right under the first few layers of skin so it makes it hard to sleep on my stomach (I'm a stomach sleeper by the way)

This is some if the things that I'm willing to share with the public. LOL some you wouldn't want to know.

The list of problems may not sound to bad to you but I have to live with them daily. Some things can be avoided if I would just stop acting like a child and stop eating it. Like bread and pasta. Sure I wouldn't die from not eating them and trust me I don't eat them often but every once in awhile I try and take a little bite and BAMMMMM dying pain. The pain last for any where from 10 mins to hours. One day I will learn I guess. But really I have been doing alot better with not eating something I know I shouldn't.

I don't only get dying pain from eating breads or pastas. Somethings a banana or yogurt does it too. Sometimes even just drinking water. I never know when its going to happen and when it does all I can do is ride it out and try to hold back the tears.

In the beginning I didn't throw up at all but this last two months I throw up alot. I HATE HATE HATE to get sick!

I haven't seen my dr in over two months. I just haven't wanted to go. He always tells me "some people have problems and some people don't". I got sick of hearing this so I just stopped going. But that hasn't gotten me anywhere. I haven't lost much weight in the last two months. I need another fill. So I called his office yesterday and I go in October for another fill at which time I am going to beg him to see me every two weeks from then on out until the band is as full as it will go. I need to speed this weight lose up. At which time I will try to keep my goal weight up for six months and if I do then I may have it removed. I am only 25 years old and I do not wish to live in pain for the rest of my life.

In the mean time I am waiting for Eviee to wake up. I am going to feed her breakfast and then we are going to meet my sister to start our daily walking. Tonight when Sean gets home we are going to put in 30 day shred and I am going to do my best to "add" to my weight lose. Wish me luck and I will try my best to stop being lazy. I did this for myself but more for Eviee. I have to change!!!!!!!!!!!

 Ok well starch that my sister just text me and one of the kids is sick so Eviee and I are on our own. But we can do this! Hope everybody have a wonderful Tuesday!

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Where Im supposed to be

I'm sitting here at my kitchen table looking out the window watching the rain come down and listening to Eviee play with "her tubber ware", thinking I am where I'm supposed to be.

My life wasn't bad growing up per say but it definitely had tons of room for improving. There was always something going on. And 9 times out of 10 is wasn't good.

When I was 16 I suffered from serve depression. I felt as though I had no one. I remember always feeling like I did belong  any where or with anybody.

 After some time I finally got out of my funk met a new group of people (thanks to my job) and things were looking up.... for a while.

Then I did something so stupid.  What was I even thinking? I wasn't thinking. He was so wrong. On every level wrong. And I knew it the second he said Hi. But that didn't stop me. After two years of living through hell knowing I did not belong with him I still said "yes" to marrying him. Why is it when we know we shouldn't do something, know we don't belong we still try. We try to be the one they need the one they want. We try to make them the one we need and want. But sometimes no matter how hard we try it just doesn't work.

Only by the grace of God I did not marry that man. I would to hate think where my life would be today or if I would even be here. (the man ended up to be a child abuser, drug addict, acholoic not to mention a cheater).  Sometimes you have to stop trying so hard to find the perfect person, stop trying to make the relationship work when you know it never will. Sometmes you have to just stop and let God lead the way. 

I met Sean while working at a daycare. I thought he was hot as hell but did not think for a second I had a chance with him. That didn't stop me though. I went nuts every time he walked into the building. And when he started really talking to me O MAN! I lost it!!! I remember telling a co-worker of mine that I was going to marry that man. She laughed and reminded me that I did not believe in marriage. You know parents divorced after almost 16 years, none of my friends parents were still together. I almost married a man who was still sleeping with his ex-wife (a week before our wedding and yes I knew he was for a long time and no she wasn't the only one he was sleeping with) and every boyfriend I ever had always thought there was something better around the corner (maybe there was). But I guess something deep inside of me just knew he was meant for me.

We started dating and instantly fell in love. We knew early on that we wanted to get married and have a family of our own. But sometimes life has other things in mind.

 A good friend of mine (my age) past away and honestly I just lost it. I left Sean in Tulsa and moved back in with my parents and instantly knew that was the dumbest thing I have ever done (to date) LOL. We of course got back together but I stayed with my parents for a couple of months.

After two months I knew I had to get back to Tulsa. I had to be with Sean. He is the only person that has ever really made me feel wanted. He's the only man I have ever walked with in a store and not felt like he was checking out that girl who just walked by. Sean makes me feel like I'm the only woman in the world and at the same time if we are in a crowded room he makes it well known that I am his. I now believe I never experienced true love until him. The other few times I don't even know what those were but this what he and I have its true love.

Being with him I feel so loved, so safe. I know he loves me and yet everyday he amazes me by showing me just how much. He makes it a point daily to express how in love with me he is. He makes me feel whole.

July 14, 2011 our darling daughter was born. I had no idea that I could love someone as much as I loved Sean, but the moment they placed her into my arms this sense of "complete" fell over me. Our life together is nothing like I have ever known. We have a perfect marriage. We do not fight. We are not looking around the corner for something better.. We are in love with each other and with our daughter.

Sean is at work and even though I miss him and wish he was here with us I still feel so happy. So loved. I spoke with him earlier and just hearing him say "I miss you" "I miss Eviee" I know this is where I was always meant to be.

I love spending my days playing with Eviee when Sean is at work. Waiting around for 6pm to start cooking dinner so its done the moment Sean walks in the door at night. The days he's off work we just hang out together as a family and I wouldn't trade it for anything or anyone in the world.

You know getting married and having a baby changes a lot of things. Some good and some not so good. Some people stay in your life and others don't. It does suck to loose someone you cared about for so long just because you have a different life then them. And it sucks even more when they do get the same kind of life and you can't rekindle the friendship. But that's life I guess. All you can do is try. If its meant to be then it will be. And if not I have everything I need with in my home. I have my loving husband and our beautiful daughter. This is my life. This is where I'm supposed to be. I pray that God gives us, ALL THREE OF US a long happy healthy life together.

Friday, September 7, 2012

If you really knew me

Another blog I follow wrote her "If you really knew me" so I thought I would do it too. Yes I'm being a copy cat get over it. LOL

If you really knew me you would know that I take my coffee with cream or milk only NO SUGAR!
That Sean and Eviee are the only two people who could make me this happy!!!!!!!!!!
That I do truly believe I have the most beautiful daughter.  :)
I love Target brand ANYTHING!!!! LOVE TARGET!!!!!!!
I hate to read. Reading blogs is pushing it and most days I don't read them. But I love me some fifty ;)
That I am trying super hard not to cuss anymore. (Trying)
That I am having issues with my Lap Band and am considering having it removed . (More on this later).
I can not stand people with bad breath! YUCK!!!!!
My house has to be clean or I will seriously go crazy.
I buy more clothes for Eviee then she will ever have the chance to wear and I don't care.
My husband seriously is the best man I have ever met and I am so thankful for him.
I do not believe I deserve Sean.
I am a very stuck up person :/
Id rather drink water 9 times out of 10
Friends are really over rated these days. I am thankful for the few "real" friends I have but beyond them....
I LOVE THE SMELL OF SHEA BUTTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE anything pumpkin.
I HATE the hot weather.
I hate the country and all things that follow. (horses,hay,cowboys,boots) LOL
I can not bake.
I love my crock pot.
I make amazing sweet tea! Too bad I hate Tea :(
I am a major bargain shopper.
I am currently in a NO TV MODE! I refuse to have my 13month old watching TV all day.
Death totally freaks me out!
So does getting old.
I am a very up tight person.

But if you really knew me you'd know that I have a major soft spot for children. I love my family more then anything. I am a very trust worthy. I try my hardest to be the best wife and mother. I want whats best for Eviee Sean and myself. And I'm really a super amazing person. If you knew me, you'd love me ;)

Monday, September 3, 2012

Whats on the list to-do's

  • Really start Christmas shoppig. (I always start early and am happy to say I already have 4 presents)
  • Find Eviee some Really good Organic Vitamins
  • Take my Armada back to the dealership to have some things fixed (head light and door) :(
  • Take a "mini road trip" with ALL THE KIDS (am I crazy???? YES!!!!)
  • Get my dang lawn guy out here. Its starting to look like a jungle out here.
  • Ive got to go see my Lap Band DR. Its been over two months. "SIGN"
  • My mom and JoAnnas birthdays are coming up. And I have no idea what to get them.
  • Find a new stroller for the Armada. (KIDS SALE PLEASE COME THROUGH)
  • But another car seat so Sean's car has one.
  • Finish my darn cookbook!!!!
  • Win the lottery. ( But if I do im not sharing just so you know) LOL TRUE!
  • Loose 36 more lbs by the end of December to reach my 80lb goal for the end of the year.
  • Have a girls day with my sisters and the little girls (maybe this weekend)

Well that it. Exciting huh??? LOL

Two post in one day. WTH?????

Nine days

This was supposed to be posted yesterday but I never got around to it.
P.S. its very long sorry.

This last nine days have been emtional to say the least. My poor little noodle has been very sick.

It all started last Wednesday night around 7 pm. She started running a low grade fever and didnt want to eat or drink. This lasted until Saturday. By 7pm Saturday night Eviee has only had 3 oz of liquids. She had only one wet diaper all day and honestly it wasnt that wet. By this time she was close to being put into the hospial if we did not get her to drink. I stayed up all night waiting for her to make any kind of move and when she did I put the bottle to her mouth. Over the course of the night I managed to get her to drink 6oz. And by 7am Sunday morning she finally had a wet diaper.

She woke up Sunday morning still with a low grade fever but she started drinking good and even eating a little. The rest of Sunday and all day Monday she was basicly back to her normal self. I did not take her to the doctor because I was sure it was just teeth as her fever never got over 100.7.

But the Tuesday morning she woke up with 102.7 fever and refused to eat or drink anything. We went to see the Doctor. He said that he ear was a little red and that her throat was a little red most likey due to "teething". But he went ahead a gave us antiboioic because Eviee is pron to ear infections when she gets new teeth in. We left happy that she would be better soon.

By Wedensday morning she was worst. Mind you she had already had two doses of meds. She woke up at 5am with 103.9 fever! I flipped! Screamed at Sean to wake up and by the time he came to her room I was already taking her clothes off of her trying to get her body to cool down.
I tried to call the after hours but was just pissed that NO ONE was picking up so I called my mom. She of course was fast asleep and thought I said Eviee was running 104.9 and yelled at me to get her to the ER NOW!!! I lost it! I just started balling. A few mintues later she woke up enough to remind me that until it gets to 105 there is no need to freak out. So I calmed down gave her some meds and about hour later her fever started to go down. She fell asleep for about three hours fever never really broke and by 10:30am her fever was now up to 104!!!! I called the doctor. And was then told that I MUST give her meds 72 hours to work on her "ear infection" HELLO her ear wasnt even that red! I was so freaking pissed and made sure that damn nurse knew it!

All day and night Wednesday we just watched her like a hawk. The doctor did comfrim what my mother had said about waiting until her fever  gets to 105 before flipping out so I did feel a little better. But her fever never went below 101.7 even after Motrin. All day and night it just jumped up and down but never fully broke.

Thursday morning it was just Eviee and I. Sean had to go back to work.Eviee woke up about 7am and I gave her dose 3 of her antiboioics. Fever still pretty high. She was only awake for about an hour and then fell back asleep. We she finally woke up I tried offered her some yogurt. (this is about all she had been eating since she got sick).She took a few bites. I got her down and about ten minutes later I noticed that her lips were turning blue and she was shaking.  I called the doctors office and demanded they see her again or I would be taking her to the ER NOW! I got off the phone with them and called Sean at work and told him to get home NOW! But as soon as her lips turned blue and she started shaking she stopped. I called Sean back and told him to mee me at home because someone had to ride in the back with her to the doctor.

Sean got home and he and I agreed that they would draw blood and see what was going on and if our doctor would not do it then we would take her somewhere else.  I knew this was no ear infection.

We get to the office and no surpise to me she had lost weight. Ya know that happens when you havent really ate or drank in DAYS! Our doctor said that the meds were working because her ear was no longer red at all but that he was worried she had a GI infection. So thankfully he sent us for blood work. I didnt want to have to kick an old man ass!!!!  For those that dont know I used to draw blood for a living and I was fully prepared to tell these people how to take care of my baby. Lucky for them they knew what they were doing. Of course she cried during but the second they pulled out the needle she stopped.

So we left the hospital after getting blood drawn and were headed home to wait for the results. Now being the person I am I always think the worst. Im not going to say what I was thinking but after 8 days of diarrhea 6 days of fever (HIGH FEVERS)  (we had two days without one right in the middle) and not eating or drinking much at all, not sleeping for Eviee and mommy (MOMMY LESS) I was seriously thinking the worst.

500pm on the dot the office called to say that she has a bacterial infection. They said that she could have got it from any where. That these are actually pretty common and that they would change her anitbioics and she should be feeling better in the next day or so.

So Thursday night we felt better knowing that we NOW had a more logical explanation for the high fevers and diarrhea. Sean went to bed I joined knowing I would not sleep but hoping Eviee would get some praying that she would wake up at least a little better in the moring.

Friday morning. 5:00am Eviees shaking and lips are blue again. I had just checked her temp. 102.7. Picked her up because it was time for more Motrin. We headed to the kitchen when she started. I started crying begging Sean to tell me what was wrong.Why was she doing that. (I had mentioned this to the doctor but did not get an answer and was more worried about getting blood drawn to keep thinking about it I guess) Next thing I know she has stopped shaking and her lips were her perfect shade of pink again. I took her back to bed to let her sleep but I couldnt put her down. I just held her crying silently praying to God to please heal my baby. Give it to me if someone must have it not her. Shes too little. Please let the meds work on her. Please dont let it be something else. Lord please please Lord heal her little body.
All the strengh I had was gone. These last nine days have been the harders days of my life. Having your child so sick and not being able to comfort them or make them better. The feeling that you are totally helpless. My worrying about all the meds she has had in the last nine days (i am anti meds) worrying about what the fever she has carried for days is doing to her body. Fighting with her to drinking or at time having to force her to drink because I didnt not want her in the hospital. Having no sleep because I felt like I had to watch over her at all times, check her fever every 20 mintures because it seriously kept going up and down. Those nine days were HELL!
Sean stayed home with me Friday. He said he could see the fear in my eyes. He said that Eviee needed her mommy but that I needed help. Ha he said he would do whatever I needed hime to do even if it was just holding Eviee while I peed! Well thanks honey but by day nine of this shit I have fully mastered how to pee and hold a 13 month old all at the same time. (dont judge me you just wait until your baby gets sick, I was not about to put her down to cry just so I could relieve myself, I agree really nasty but sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do). By 11am her fever had gone up to 104.5. After a few mintues of freaking out we striped her clothes off and within 20 minutes it was back down.  The rest of the day just played out like the last few. We headed to bed and set my alarm to go off every hour in case I happened to fall asleep or if nothing else to remind me to check her temp because she had one at 6pm so by about 11pm she would be running one again.

Saturday moring Sean got up to head to work. He asked me how her fever did through the night. With a smile on my face I told him she didnt have one! Fianlly after days and days it had finally broke. And I am happy to say that she still  fever free. She woke up ready to eat whatever momma gave her which was nice considering she only been eating yogurt well she did have my subway sandwhich last night LOL and besides catching up on her sleep she seems to be back to her normal sweet funny happy HEALTHY girl!

Thank you to everyone that prayed for Eviee.

Sorry for the long post.

Monday, August 20, 2012

So I was told today by a friend of mine that I have disappeared! Im usually good at mia. But I am here and still alive.

Today was a exciting and a stressful day. We are shopping for a new vehicle. Let me tell you that isn't something you want to plan to do in one day or with a one year old. Eviee is a great baby but after hours and hours of shopping around a girl gets tried ya know???? LOL Poor thing. I felt so bad after we got done. I should have had a babysitter today but I just like to have my girl with me :)

Anyways we made it though the day and finally found "THE CAR". FYI I don't care if its a truck car SUV they are all cars to me just like Dr Pepper Pepsi and Coke are all COKE ya'll need to get that right. I hate the word "soda" or "pop".

Ok so anyways we are going tomorrow morning to sign on the X! YIKES!!! I have never had a car this nice and for sure have never paid that much for ANYTHING!!!!!

We are buying a 2011 Nissan Armada!!! My dream car. I have been eyeing this for years and can not wait to drive it off that parking lot!!!!!!

Eviee is now 13 months and 1 week old!

She is finally standing on her own.

Not walking but I told Sean the other day I kinda hope that's months down the road. I want to keep her little as long as I can. :)

There has been alot of talk lately that I am pregnant.... well..... I'M NOT!!!!!

But there may or may not have been some talk around here about having a second child. But I'm not gonna tell you ha!

I am looking so forward to being skinny and getting out all my high heels and dressing like a little slut (when I don't have Eviee) YES you read right. Slut!!!! HAHA  Tight fitting showing to much slutty clothes!  HAHAHA I'm not joking just wait and see. So anyways a big baby belly doesn't fit into that right now so.....

Well it is bath time so to my friend I hope this will work for ya until I get some real time to write and I will/need to do my best at posting everyday but Eviee keeps me busy.LOL I'm glad we got to caught up a little today!

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Some things im working on...

There are some many projects I want to get start/finished and the sooner the better like....

  • Finish decorating Eviee's room along with ours
  • O and add living room to that as well ( we got side tracked with having our baby)
  • Put together my healthy cook book (more on this below)
  • Once binder/cook book is put together I really want to start making everything from starch.
  • Make Eviee some bows to go along with some of her new fall/winter outfits.
  • I have already started Christmas shopping but need to keep going.Yes you should be jealous.
  • Getting Sean enrolled in online classes so we can get our butts back to Tulsa, OK!!!!
  • I'm thinking about getting more blond put in my hair????
  • Organizing everything for this big kids sale we have down here.

That's my short list of things I'm working on.

The cook book is just a bunch of healthy recipes I think Sean and I will like but also I approve of Eviee eating too. I will not be that mom that makes everybody something different to eat. The book has all kinds of recipes. Breakfast,lunch,Dinner,snacks and so on. Seriously people there are other things to feed your kids beside sugar cereal and chicken nuggets Get up earlier or rather off your lazy butt and make you kid a healthy meal! It'll be good for you too :)
Once I get this all together I will start sharing our meals!!!!

Monday, August 6, 2012

Well it seems like it has been forever since I posted anything. Ok well not FOREVER but forever. Not alot has been going on. The temp here is just INSANE so Eviee and I try our best to stay at home as much as we can. But we have to get out today. We are in need of a baby gate BAD!!! Eviee loves to be in the kitchen (ha like her mommy and daddy) and she likes to open up the cabinets. I gave one that is full of tuber ware hoping that would keep her out of all the other ones but it hasn't.

Since we are renting this house I do not want to install all those dang hooks.You know the ones you out in side of the doors that you have to push down on to get them opened. Yea I hate those damn things and just think it would be best to just close off the whole kitchen. So that's what we are doing today.

Last week I started watching this little 4 month old. She is so cute TONS of hair. I cant help but play with it all day. Come on Eviee grow some hair!!!!! Anyways I just keep her two days a week. I really didn't want to watch another child but I do want Eviee to have someone to play with. I know they cant play together now but in a few months they will be able to interact more.

On that note I'm still kinda thinking about setting up my own play group. That way if I don't like the people who show up I can tell them to leave LOL. Gosh I'm really not a people person.

We are getting more and more excited about going on Vacation in October. We are going to Savannah GA. I have always wanted to go. And Sean kinda let me pick where we would go this time. Ok well we decided it together but he asked me where I wanted to go so..... He's a great man!!!! Speeching of the trip I have got to buy a smaller stroller. Our is HUGH!!!! I bought a jogging stroller because I want to start jogging (i know same story still not getting off my butt and doing it) but anyways its just way to big and takes up the whole trunk of the car so we MUST buy a smaller one before then.  Waiting on the kids sale maybe Ill get lucky and find one then.

Eviee is finally (kinda) standing on her own. This child... She was always at least two months ahead on reaching her milestones until.... she has no desire to stand or walk LET ME TELL YOU. She will walk as long you are holding her hands but the second you let go she sits down.

She is climbing on EVERYTHING!!!

I think we finally have a bedtime routine set up and it seems to be working wonderfully.

Sean is working like crazy. I miss him so much while he is gone.

Sadly I have no progress to mention on my weight loss. Ive really been thinking about getting a gym membership and having a trainer work my butt off but...... I hate people.. Not all I love you for reading this but people I don't know I don't really like :(

Anyways thats all I got my noodle is waking up. Ya'll have a good day.

P.S. no time to proof read so just act like I did good!

Wednesday, July 25, 2012


  • Sean is off for the next four days and I can not be more trilled! He has been working non stop for weeks now so it will be nice to wake up to him in bed beside me for a few days! I <3 him
  • Tomorrow night I am having a MUCH NEEDED girls night out with my BFF. She has been on my mind for a few days so it will be nice to see her.
  • We are planning a trip to GA in the fall SO FREAKING EXCITED!
  • I am down 50 lbs!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • I am so ready for skinny clothes and 6 inch heels.
  • Eviee is finally getting enough hair now to where is will stick up! SO CUTE!
  • I'm turning into an old lady :(  I'm having to wear glasses to read. Ive had them for two years now but am really having to wear them now.
  • After we get back from GA we will be on the car hunt! We really already know what we will get but were gonna check out a few other things just in case!
  • I am so beyond ready for the fall. I am not a 100 degree plus kinda girl.
  • I bought the cutest damn purse the other day at TJ Maxx! LOVE THE PLACE!
  • My blog is fixing to do an 180. I got picked up by Kiwi Mag and will be doing some post for them so I decided this would be a good time to "UP" my blog. Be on the look out for daily post about anything from food, family, friends, shopping, movies, travel, diy projects, and of course Eviee!
  • My sister has gotten me addicted to the books Fifty Shades of Grey. I just moved on to #2 and I'm telling you I don't want to put it down. "The Red Room" HUMMMMMMM lol jk!
  • I made a list of goals I wanted to accomplish before the end of the end of the year and I have to say that I am further along then I thought I would be.
I guess thats about it for now!!!!!!!!!!!! Ya'll have a good night. Laters Baby!

Sunday, July 15, 2012


Yesterday my sweet little angel turned one! I woke up at 6:00 a.m. just crying my eyes out. It really does break my heart that this last year has gone by so fast. I can't believe that her first year has already come and gone. With that being said after I had my little meltdown something just came over me and from that moment on I was excited to celebrate her 1st birthday!

She woke up at 8:30 and the first thing I did was tell her "Happy Birthday"! Then we woke daddy up saying "daddy wake up cause it's my birthday" LOL.

I really wanted the whole day to be special for her and that means breakfast too. My mom always made my favorite meal for dinner on my birthdays so I decided to do just that but with breakfast. So Eviee had Strawberry Soy yogurt and a banana! This girl would eat this all day every day if I'd let her! She loves it!

For Eviee's "big" gift we took her on the train ride that goes from Van Buren to Winslow. It was alot of fun, and Eviee really seemed to enjoy herself. Even the whole train even sang her "Happy Birthday". We really enjoyed it and intend to make this a tradition every year with her.

That evening for her birthday dinner we took her to Cracker Barrel. I love that place and Eviee seemed to agree with momma. Eviee ate carrots, mash potatoes, and a little bit of biscuit.

The rest of the night we spent at home just playing with her and thinking back on this last year.

So now for her 1 year update! (I'm still going to try and keep up with monthly updates fingers crossed)

She has not put on much weight according to my scale. Still at 21 lbs but we will see what the doctors says on Thursday.

She is totally off formula and on Soy milk.

Still taking bottles. But I'm ok with that after all she is only a year old its not like shes four! LOL

Wearing size 4 diapers but I feel like they are too big but the 3's are a little to small.

She is now wearing Pampers sensitive instead of the norm. Her skin is just crazy!

We still feed her mostly baby food. I mean come on she only has four teeth! And the way I see it is we don't mind buying it, she eats it and I know she is getting plenty of fruits veggies and meat! She's at that stage where she likes to throw food off her tray so this way I know how much she is getting. We do give her some of the food we are eating but I'm picky about what she has and she always eats her baby food first then a few bites off our plates. With that being said this child freaking LOVES peaches. That has got to be her favorite fruit/food! I have a fruit bowl and everytime we walk by it she starts talking and pointing to it. I lean her down and what does she pull out every time... peaches! And she will eat the whole thing!

Besides soy milk she really only gets water to drink. I have given her juice a couple of times but she really didn't like it. However she really does love water.... hummm like mother like daughter LOL!

Still isn't walking nor does she seem like she is going to any time soon. Its funny, Sean and I were talking the other day about how she was always two months ahead on every milestone up until walking. LOL But I'm in no hurry for it at all :)

She now will sign "eat" to me when I ask her if she wants to "eat" and yesterday I'm pretty sure she signed "more"!!!!

She blew her first kiss today to a total stranger when we were taking our after dinner walk. Silly girl.

I am happy to report but am sure that as soon as I do things will change but here goes nothing.....
Eviee is taking two hour long naps TWICE a day!!!!!!!!! Holy cow!!!!!!!!!! She has been doing this for the last two weeks and I just don't know what to think about it. I'll put her down then think of all the things I need to do that cant be down when she is awake but I just sit there cause I keep thinking as soon as I start she will wake up.... but she doesn't at least not for two hours! VICTORY!  HAHA And she isnt waking up till about ten in the mornings. Night time is still the same. Getting up about once but then shes back out within minutes.

She is still able to wear alot of 6-9 and 9-12 months clothing but for the most part she is wearing 12 months.

Finally in a size 3 shoe!

She has started biting well biting me anyways. ALL THE TIME!

She has recently developed a little attitude. If she doesn't get what she wants she will scream really loud and then sit down on the floor and put her head between her legs! HA its pretty funny actually. Guess she has her mommas attitude :)

She has learned how to climb this past week. And wants to climb on everything.

Eviee is so funny. She always has us laughing. And is the sweetest baby. Always giving you kisses or hugs. Even if I'm doing dishes she will come up and hug on my leg. So sweet. I love this little girl so much.  I am still a little sad that she is now a year old but I am getting really excited about all the fun things that she will be doing and watching her as she learns new things. I can't wait for the first time she says "I love you momma" that will be the day I brust out in tears for sure!!!! I just feel so blessed that she is my daughter. I am one lucky momma!!! I love you Eviee!

(I have alot more pictures but they are on my phone... I'll post those later)

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Tidbits for Eviees big day

  • We are officially two days away from Eviee turning one
  • My emotions are going insane just thinking about the above
  • We went last night and had her one year pictures taken and we just might have thrown a few family ones in there :)
  • Besides deciding on party favors and one last present her party is all ready to go.
  • On Saturday morning we are taking Eviee on the train ride. I'm so excited. We wanted something that we could do with her every year (at least till she tells us she doesn't want to) and we thought that taking the train ride would be really fun .
  • I'm trying to decided what to make her for her birthday breakfast! LOL Gotta start the day off right!
  • O and Ive got to get her birthday banner done ASAP!
I guess that's really it I thought I had more to write but now I cant think LOL until Saturday!

                                 A little preview of last night!

A big thanks to my friend Atalie for doing her pictures!

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Please don't let me forget

Here I am three days away from celebrating Eviee's first birthday and at this moment all I can think about are things I hope I never forget.
  • The sweet little smile she has on her face the moment her eyes open and she sees me
  • Her sweet soft little semi chubby cheeks :)
  • The little noises she makes when she is drifting of to sleep
  • How she points at everything and says "OOOOO"
  • How excited she gets when daddy gets home from work. She literally jumps out of my arms and into his.
  • The way she scrunches her nose when she laughs or smiles really big
  • Her chubby little fingers
  • When she gets a boo boo and I pick her up she gives me a kisses <3
  • How she has the absolute cutest damn giggle I have ever heard in my life. And she giggles at everything!
  • How totally in love with her brother she is. I have never seen love between a brother and sister like they have. ( I know they are both little but you can tell it is an ever lasting love)
  • The way she takes off scooting freaking fast across the hard wood floors the moment she hears the water running in the bathroom. She loves baths LOL
  • Just the way she scoots. Sean says she is the smartest baby alive because most babies crawl on all fours but not Eviee she scoots and you know why???? Because she wants to carry her baby dolls with her and if she crawl like other babies she wouldn't be able to carry her baby! HA!!! We have a smart baby!
  • The look she gets in her eyes when she sees me. Melt. My. Heart.
  • The way she loves people. All people. I don't know that she will ever meet a "stranger".
  • I hope I never forget the way it feels to hold her little body in my arms.
  • I hope I never forget what it feels like kissing those sweet little cheeks.
  • I hope I never forget what it feels like when she is hugging me tight.
  • But most of all I hope SHE never forgets that she is one loved baby. That she is the answer to my prayer. That she is the baby I have longed for, for so long. That she is my everything and I love her with everything I have.
In three days she will be one. It will be a very bittersweet day for me but I am looking forward to all the wonderful things life has to bring because I have Eviee. I love you my sweet princess.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

My poor little noodle

 Late yesterday Eviee started to run a slight fever. By 10:00 p.m. it was over 101. She was in a pretty good mode minus the fact that she hadn't really taking a nap. (this is very much Eviee, naps are not nor have they ever been her thing) I gave her some meds put her in her jammies and off to bed she went. Around 3:00 a.m. she woke with now 103.1 fever! I immediately gave her some more pain meds and a bottle (this would be the first bottle she has had at night in over a week) thinking she would fall back to sleep let the meds do their job and praying she would wake feeling like her sweet little self.

 Not even close! Bless her heart she just could not get comfortable. She tossed and turned. I tried to hold her. She rolled onto Sean. I tried putting her in her crib. We came back to bed and she continued to toss and turn. I finally took her into the living room sat in the chair and finally she began to relax... a little. A few minutes later she was wiggling all over the place and then started to fuss. So what did this momma do after being up most of the night????

We grab the car keys and took a drive at 5:00 a.m.  By this point I was just praying I would not fall asleep at the wheel. (cars make me sleepy) and I knew I needed coffee and I needed it now!!!

Well if you live in one of the smallest towns in America then the only damn thing that is open at that time is McDonald's. For those that do not know me I am totally against McDonald's. Not for you but for me and Eviee. Eviee will NEVER get McDonald's if  I can help it. You should really look up how they make their chicken nuggets (these were once my absolute favorite) trust me unless you are just crazy LOL JK you will never want to eat it again.

 Ok anyways back to my point.... I haven't had McDonald's in over a year but I had to have coffee. Cafe Mocha Frappe please. I ordered the smallest one they had thinking it would totally suck be to sweet ( I drink my coffee without sugar) but it was WONDERFUL! Maybe it was just because I was sleep deprived but it was awesome!! And what do you know here I am at 6:20 a.m.typing this up. LOL I guess it did its job. Eviee is fast asleep in her crib and I am praying she wakes up feeling much better. Hope ya'll have a wonderful day! Sorry for rumbling on :)

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Bag full of emotions

I am so overwhelmed with emotions about Eviee turning a year old. All my life all I ever wanted was to be a mommy. As a very little girl playing with my baby dolls,  a teenager babysitting all the children in the neighborhood, to being an adult and knowing that the only job I wanted was in a daycare where I could be surrounded by what I love... children. All while dreaming of the day when I would have my very own to hold. A child I could name. A child I could dress up each and everyday. I child I could proudly walk around with. A child that nobody would take away from me at the end of the day.

The day I found out I was going to be a mom was the absoult best day in my entire life. That day change my world. That day change who I was. That day change who Sean and I were to each other. That day that day was magical

Every day since July 14 at 5:44 p.m. I have cried. I have cried and I have thanked God and cried and thank God and cried and thank God. I get so emtional just looking at Eviee. Everytime she makes a cute face, or falls asleep in my arms, everytime she gives me kisses or just hugs me I have to fight tears and tears win. But these last few weeks have been really hard on me. Ive been working on everything for her birthday and was doing really good until her invitiations arrvied. When I opened them and saw "Eviees turning 1" I just totally lost it. My baby the one I longed for, for so long was going to one. How in the hell is that even possible. I remember sitting here this time last year so incridabliey pregnant and thinking I couldnt wait any longer to see my baby. And now here we are two weeks (give or take a day) from celebrating her first birthday.

This past year I have smiled more then I ever have my entire life! This past year I have felt more love then I ever knew possible. I have learned so much about myself and about the relationship my husband and I have. This year I have fallen even more in love with him.  I feel like this was the year my life began.

Ive mentioned before about how Sean would love nothing more then to have another child. Thank goodness I married a man who loves kids but good grife that would be FIVE kids for him. LOL. And for so long I didnt want to have any other children. Actually from the moment I found out we were having a baby girl. That changed me. I always wanted to have three children of my own but always said that I think I could be very happy with just one. Well that proved to be true up until about a month ago I was totally against having more.

Sean and I talk lot about children. The children we have the children we dont have that he wants LOL and other peoples children :) One night he and I were talking about how Logan wants a brother so bad. I said "im trying to convice myself that I want to have another baby" Sean then repiled "well dont because Im trying to convince myself that I dont want another one"  "I know that you dont want anymore and I want to make you happy". This man let me tell you. He is so increditable! He gives all women hope that there really are true gentleman left in the world. He is always trying to make me happy. He wants me to be happy no matter what and that means no matter what he wants. I have always said to him and others that I do not deserve him. He is way to good for me. He is amazing!

Well the moment he said " I want to make you happy" my mind just kinda stop and thought about that for days. I just kept thinking about how in the last four and a half years the only two things (of meaning) that this man has asked of me is to marry him and two have another baby. Eviee we decided on together!!!! So I thought about it and thought about it. I then found out that somebody very close to me would be welcoming a second child to their family next year and that REALLY got me thinking. I told Sean about this person and I could see his eyes light up. I was actually kinda mean to him, he came home from work and I just immeditinly screamed "so and so is pregnant and I want to be too". Well the moment I said that it was a total lie. I guess I just wanted to see what he would say or do. But when he repiled "really" and I saw that look in his eyes my mind just has not been the same.

The last two or three days all I can think about is of course Eviee turning one and why dont I just have another baby. I mean really why shouldnt I?????  Why shouldnt I give this wonderful man what he wants. He has already given me everything why couldnt I do this for him? I may not feel the same way I did when we decided to have Eviee but I would be so happy so in love with that child just as I am with Eviee. So why not have another baby????

Saturday, June 30, 2012

Wonderful things are happening

So this last week has been really AMAZING!!!!!

  • Somebody I know got so GREAT news this week and I feel so blessed that she shared it with me :)
  • Sean is wanting to go back to college and we found out that the place he is currently working for recently partnered up with the college he was thinking about going to so we get a discount!!!
  • Eviee is saying alot more words!!!!
  • Eviee has been drinking milk from a sippy cup!
  • I just maybe will have wonderful news of my own come Monday morning.
  • My blog (YES THIS ONE) got picked up by Moms Meet this week!!! Super excited! Moms meet is partnered with Kiwi Magazine. Kiwi is a magazine for us Natural mommas. I will talk more about this in my next blog.
  • Ive lost three lbs just this week!!!!!!
  • Ive started working on Eviees room AGAIN!
There is more but I just can't tell you yet!!! Have a wonderful weekend everyone!