Wednesday, July 25, 2012


  • Sean is off for the next four days and I can not be more trilled! He has been working non stop for weeks now so it will be nice to wake up to him in bed beside me for a few days! I <3 him
  • Tomorrow night I am having a MUCH NEEDED girls night out with my BFF. She has been on my mind for a few days so it will be nice to see her.
  • We are planning a trip to GA in the fall SO FREAKING EXCITED!
  • I am down 50 lbs!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • I am so ready for skinny clothes and 6 inch heels.
  • Eviee is finally getting enough hair now to where is will stick up! SO CUTE!
  • I'm turning into an old lady :(  I'm having to wear glasses to read. Ive had them for two years now but am really having to wear them now.
  • After we get back from GA we will be on the car hunt! We really already know what we will get but were gonna check out a few other things just in case!
  • I am so beyond ready for the fall. I am not a 100 degree plus kinda girl.
  • I bought the cutest damn purse the other day at TJ Maxx! LOVE THE PLACE!
  • My blog is fixing to do an 180. I got picked up by Kiwi Mag and will be doing some post for them so I decided this would be a good time to "UP" my blog. Be on the look out for daily post about anything from food, family, friends, shopping, movies, travel, diy projects, and of course Eviee!
  • My sister has gotten me addicted to the books Fifty Shades of Grey. I just moved on to #2 and I'm telling you I don't want to put it down. "The Red Room" HUMMMMMMM lol jk!
  • I made a list of goals I wanted to accomplish before the end of the end of the year and I have to say that I am further along then I thought I would be.
I guess thats about it for now!!!!!!!!!!!! Ya'll have a good night. Laters Baby!

Sunday, July 15, 2012


Yesterday my sweet little angel turned one! I woke up at 6:00 a.m. just crying my eyes out. It really does break my heart that this last year has gone by so fast. I can't believe that her first year has already come and gone. With that being said after I had my little meltdown something just came over me and from that moment on I was excited to celebrate her 1st birthday!

She woke up at 8:30 and the first thing I did was tell her "Happy Birthday"! Then we woke daddy up saying "daddy wake up cause it's my birthday" LOL.

I really wanted the whole day to be special for her and that means breakfast too. My mom always made my favorite meal for dinner on my birthdays so I decided to do just that but with breakfast. So Eviee had Strawberry Soy yogurt and a banana! This girl would eat this all day every day if I'd let her! She loves it!

For Eviee's "big" gift we took her on the train ride that goes from Van Buren to Winslow. It was alot of fun, and Eviee really seemed to enjoy herself. Even the whole train even sang her "Happy Birthday". We really enjoyed it and intend to make this a tradition every year with her.

That evening for her birthday dinner we took her to Cracker Barrel. I love that place and Eviee seemed to agree with momma. Eviee ate carrots, mash potatoes, and a little bit of biscuit.

The rest of the night we spent at home just playing with her and thinking back on this last year.

So now for her 1 year update! (I'm still going to try and keep up with monthly updates fingers crossed)

She has not put on much weight according to my scale. Still at 21 lbs but we will see what the doctors says on Thursday.

She is totally off formula and on Soy milk.

Still taking bottles. But I'm ok with that after all she is only a year old its not like shes four! LOL

Wearing size 4 diapers but I feel like they are too big but the 3's are a little to small.

She is now wearing Pampers sensitive instead of the norm. Her skin is just crazy!

We still feed her mostly baby food. I mean come on she only has four teeth! And the way I see it is we don't mind buying it, she eats it and I know she is getting plenty of fruits veggies and meat! She's at that stage where she likes to throw food off her tray so this way I know how much she is getting. We do give her some of the food we are eating but I'm picky about what she has and she always eats her baby food first then a few bites off our plates. With that being said this child freaking LOVES peaches. That has got to be her favorite fruit/food! I have a fruit bowl and everytime we walk by it she starts talking and pointing to it. I lean her down and what does she pull out every time... peaches! And she will eat the whole thing!

Besides soy milk she really only gets water to drink. I have given her juice a couple of times but she really didn't like it. However she really does love water.... hummm like mother like daughter LOL!

Still isn't walking nor does she seem like she is going to any time soon. Its funny, Sean and I were talking the other day about how she was always two months ahead on every milestone up until walking. LOL But I'm in no hurry for it at all :)

She now will sign "eat" to me when I ask her if she wants to "eat" and yesterday I'm pretty sure she signed "more"!!!!

She blew her first kiss today to a total stranger when we were taking our after dinner walk. Silly girl.

I am happy to report but am sure that as soon as I do things will change but here goes nothing.....
Eviee is taking two hour long naps TWICE a day!!!!!!!!! Holy cow!!!!!!!!!! She has been doing this for the last two weeks and I just don't know what to think about it. I'll put her down then think of all the things I need to do that cant be down when she is awake but I just sit there cause I keep thinking as soon as I start she will wake up.... but she doesn't at least not for two hours! VICTORY!  HAHA And she isnt waking up till about ten in the mornings. Night time is still the same. Getting up about once but then shes back out within minutes.

She is still able to wear alot of 6-9 and 9-12 months clothing but for the most part she is wearing 12 months.

Finally in a size 3 shoe!

She has started biting well biting me anyways. ALL THE TIME!

She has recently developed a little attitude. If she doesn't get what she wants she will scream really loud and then sit down on the floor and put her head between her legs! HA its pretty funny actually. Guess she has her mommas attitude :)

She has learned how to climb this past week. And wants to climb on everything.

Eviee is so funny. She always has us laughing. And is the sweetest baby. Always giving you kisses or hugs. Even if I'm doing dishes she will come up and hug on my leg. So sweet. I love this little girl so much.  I am still a little sad that she is now a year old but I am getting really excited about all the fun things that she will be doing and watching her as she learns new things. I can't wait for the first time she says "I love you momma" that will be the day I brust out in tears for sure!!!! I just feel so blessed that she is my daughter. I am one lucky momma!!! I love you Eviee!

(I have alot more pictures but they are on my phone... I'll post those later)

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Tidbits for Eviees big day

  • We are officially two days away from Eviee turning one
  • My emotions are going insane just thinking about the above
  • We went last night and had her one year pictures taken and we just might have thrown a few family ones in there :)
  • Besides deciding on party favors and one last present her party is all ready to go.
  • On Saturday morning we are taking Eviee on the train ride. I'm so excited. We wanted something that we could do with her every year (at least till she tells us she doesn't want to) and we thought that taking the train ride would be really fun .
  • I'm trying to decided what to make her for her birthday breakfast! LOL Gotta start the day off right!
  • O and Ive got to get her birthday banner done ASAP!
I guess that's really it I thought I had more to write but now I cant think LOL until Saturday!

                                 A little preview of last night!

A big thanks to my friend Atalie for doing her pictures!

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Please don't let me forget

Here I am three days away from celebrating Eviee's first birthday and at this moment all I can think about are things I hope I never forget.
  • The sweet little smile she has on her face the moment her eyes open and she sees me
  • Her sweet soft little semi chubby cheeks :)
  • The little noises she makes when she is drifting of to sleep
  • How she points at everything and says "OOOOO"
  • How excited she gets when daddy gets home from work. She literally jumps out of my arms and into his.
  • The way she scrunches her nose when she laughs or smiles really big
  • Her chubby little fingers
  • When she gets a boo boo and I pick her up she gives me a kisses <3
  • How she has the absolute cutest damn giggle I have ever heard in my life. And she giggles at everything!
  • How totally in love with her brother she is. I have never seen love between a brother and sister like they have. ( I know they are both little but you can tell it is an ever lasting love)
  • The way she takes off scooting freaking fast across the hard wood floors the moment she hears the water running in the bathroom. She loves baths LOL
  • Just the way she scoots. Sean says she is the smartest baby alive because most babies crawl on all fours but not Eviee she scoots and you know why???? Because she wants to carry her baby dolls with her and if she crawl like other babies she wouldn't be able to carry her baby! HA!!! We have a smart baby!
  • The look she gets in her eyes when she sees me. Melt. My. Heart.
  • The way she loves people. All people. I don't know that she will ever meet a "stranger".
  • I hope I never forget the way it feels to hold her little body in my arms.
  • I hope I never forget what it feels like kissing those sweet little cheeks.
  • I hope I never forget what it feels like when she is hugging me tight.
  • But most of all I hope SHE never forgets that she is one loved baby. That she is the answer to my prayer. That she is the baby I have longed for, for so long. That she is my everything and I love her with everything I have.
In three days she will be one. It will be a very bittersweet day for me but I am looking forward to all the wonderful things life has to bring because I have Eviee. I love you my sweet princess.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

My poor little noodle

 Late yesterday Eviee started to run a slight fever. By 10:00 p.m. it was over 101. She was in a pretty good mode minus the fact that she hadn't really taking a nap. (this is very much Eviee, naps are not nor have they ever been her thing) I gave her some meds put her in her jammies and off to bed she went. Around 3:00 a.m. she woke with now 103.1 fever! I immediately gave her some more pain meds and a bottle (this would be the first bottle she has had at night in over a week) thinking she would fall back to sleep let the meds do their job and praying she would wake feeling like her sweet little self.

 Not even close! Bless her heart she just could not get comfortable. She tossed and turned. I tried to hold her. She rolled onto Sean. I tried putting her in her crib. We came back to bed and she continued to toss and turn. I finally took her into the living room sat in the chair and finally she began to relax... a little. A few minutes later she was wiggling all over the place and then started to fuss. So what did this momma do after being up most of the night????

We grab the car keys and took a drive at 5:00 a.m.  By this point I was just praying I would not fall asleep at the wheel. (cars make me sleepy) and I knew I needed coffee and I needed it now!!!

Well if you live in one of the smallest towns in America then the only damn thing that is open at that time is McDonald's. For those that do not know me I am totally against McDonald's. Not for you but for me and Eviee. Eviee will NEVER get McDonald's if  I can help it. You should really look up how they make their chicken nuggets (these were once my absolute favorite) trust me unless you are just crazy LOL JK you will never want to eat it again.

 Ok anyways back to my point.... I haven't had McDonald's in over a year but I had to have coffee. Cafe Mocha Frappe please. I ordered the smallest one they had thinking it would totally suck be to sweet ( I drink my coffee without sugar) but it was WONDERFUL! Maybe it was just because I was sleep deprived but it was awesome!! And what do you know here I am at 6:20 a.m.typing this up. LOL I guess it did its job. Eviee is fast asleep in her crib and I am praying she wakes up feeling much better. Hope ya'll have a wonderful day! Sorry for rumbling on :)

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Bag full of emotions

I am so overwhelmed with emotions about Eviee turning a year old. All my life all I ever wanted was to be a mommy. As a very little girl playing with my baby dolls,  a teenager babysitting all the children in the neighborhood, to being an adult and knowing that the only job I wanted was in a daycare where I could be surrounded by what I love... children. All while dreaming of the day when I would have my very own to hold. A child I could name. A child I could dress up each and everyday. I child I could proudly walk around with. A child that nobody would take away from me at the end of the day.

The day I found out I was going to be a mom was the absoult best day in my entire life. That day change my world. That day change who I was. That day change who Sean and I were to each other. That day that day was magical

Every day since July 14 at 5:44 p.m. I have cried. I have cried and I have thanked God and cried and thank God and cried and thank God. I get so emtional just looking at Eviee. Everytime she makes a cute face, or falls asleep in my arms, everytime she gives me kisses or just hugs me I have to fight tears and tears win. But these last few weeks have been really hard on me. Ive been working on everything for her birthday and was doing really good until her invitiations arrvied. When I opened them and saw "Eviees turning 1" I just totally lost it. My baby the one I longed for, for so long was going to one. How in the hell is that even possible. I remember sitting here this time last year so incridabliey pregnant and thinking I couldnt wait any longer to see my baby. And now here we are two weeks (give or take a day) from celebrating her first birthday.

This past year I have smiled more then I ever have my entire life! This past year I have felt more love then I ever knew possible. I have learned so much about myself and about the relationship my husband and I have. This year I have fallen even more in love with him.  I feel like this was the year my life began.

Ive mentioned before about how Sean would love nothing more then to have another child. Thank goodness I married a man who loves kids but good grife that would be FIVE kids for him. LOL. And for so long I didnt want to have any other children. Actually from the moment I found out we were having a baby girl. That changed me. I always wanted to have three children of my own but always said that I think I could be very happy with just one. Well that proved to be true up until about a month ago I was totally against having more.

Sean and I talk lot about children. The children we have the children we dont have that he wants LOL and other peoples children :) One night he and I were talking about how Logan wants a brother so bad. I said "im trying to convice myself that I want to have another baby" Sean then repiled "well dont because Im trying to convince myself that I dont want another one"  "I know that you dont want anymore and I want to make you happy". This man let me tell you. He is so increditable! He gives all women hope that there really are true gentleman left in the world. He is always trying to make me happy. He wants me to be happy no matter what and that means no matter what he wants. I have always said to him and others that I do not deserve him. He is way to good for me. He is amazing!

Well the moment he said " I want to make you happy" my mind just kinda stop and thought about that for days. I just kept thinking about how in the last four and a half years the only two things (of meaning) that this man has asked of me is to marry him and two have another baby. Eviee we decided on together!!!! So I thought about it and thought about it. I then found out that somebody very close to me would be welcoming a second child to their family next year and that REALLY got me thinking. I told Sean about this person and I could see his eyes light up. I was actually kinda mean to him, he came home from work and I just immeditinly screamed "so and so is pregnant and I want to be too". Well the moment I said that it was a total lie. I guess I just wanted to see what he would say or do. But when he repiled "really" and I saw that look in his eyes my mind just has not been the same.

The last two or three days all I can think about is of course Eviee turning one and why dont I just have another baby. I mean really why shouldnt I?????  Why shouldnt I give this wonderful man what he wants. He has already given me everything why couldnt I do this for him? I may not feel the same way I did when we decided to have Eviee but I would be so happy so in love with that child just as I am with Eviee. So why not have another baby????