Sunday, March 10, 2013


This band.
I thought this Lap Band was going to be a miracle for me.
I thought this band was going to give me a life I have never know.
A life of skinny.
Being skinny is something I have only ever dreamed about.
This band.
I wanted it so bad.
I wanted this band to help me.
I wanted this band not only for me but for Sean and Eviee as well.
I wanted/want to be healthy.
I wanted to be able to run around the park with my daughter.
I wanted my husband to have a wife he is proud to show off.
I kinda wanted to be that wife that all the other wives are jealous of. HAHA no for real I'm like that!
I just want to be happy with the way I looked for once.
This band it has helped me. I do see that.
I don't eat as much as I used to.
I almost never eat anything fried anymore. (partly because lap bands and fried food don't mix)
I drink water in place of Dr Pepper or Diet Dr Pepper (which isn't any better for you)
I have changed.
I have dropped 72lbs (20lbs before I got the band)
I am making better food choices.
But really this band has only made me regret the discussion I made to get it.
Sean tried to talk me out of it.
He said I didn't need it.
But the truth was, I did.
But this band is making me sick.
I am not able to eat the foods my body needs to live off of.
I do not have any energy because I can not eat.
I hate eating.
I hate trying to eat.
I hate eating in public.
I am always throwing up.
Since last Monday I have lost five and half pounds.
I haven't been able to eat or drink anything without throwing it up.
Everything is just getting stuck in my throat.
Nothing is going down.
I feel like maybe my band has slipped. (some do) (not good)
I feel like something is really wrong.
I have had days like this but not a solid week.
Something isn't right.
Of course I like the fact that I have dropped five and a half pounds in a week but I don't want to do it like this.
I feel like I am dehydrated.
My head is killing me.
My back hurts so bad.
My sides are starting to hurt.
My pee is a dark orange (sorry tmi)
This is not good.
I am calling my doctor tomorrow.
I am going to tell him I want this taken out.
It is not working for me.
It hasn't ever worked for me.
Ive given it a year.
I am going to get this taken out.
I have to!
This band is from hell!

Friday, March 8, 2013

Friday Favorites

So I'm trying to get this blog a little more organized. I feel like it is one of the few things in my life that is not and I just can't handle it anymore.
So one way I am going to get it organized it to "TRY" and do certain post on certain days like for instance Friday Favorites. Each Friday I am going to post what I am loving this week. (you don't care then click the X) LOL I love saying that!

So what I am loving ... And I will have to post web pictures because my camera is dead! :( (i so need to get another one but I one I want cost alot of $$$ and I just am not ready to spend that)

I have always loved buying Eviee books (and she has alot) but I am now loving finding them online for next to nothing!!! (seriously as I get older I am becoming a little cheap LOL) My new favorite place to order books for Eviee is on Totsy! I just got in 7 books and I only paid like $20 with shipping! O yea check them out!

This is what I live on most days. This lap band and me are not friends. I see it now. It's never liked me and it's never going to like me. I have ALOT of trouble eating most days and it got to the point where I would eat or drink anything that I could keep down and most of the time it wasn't good for me. So I started buying this again and been drinking it whenever I am able to keep something down.
It looks so gross but it taste so good! Try it! It gives you alot of energy and makes your skin look amazing!

This is the bible study I am doing right now. My first bible study since I was a kid and I am absolutely loving it! Its about making wise choices in the midst of raw emotions. This couldn't be more perfect for me on so many different levels. We meet every Monday. For the first time in forever I look forward to Mondays. I think this book is going to help me alot and I am hoping that doing this study will help me come out of my comfort zone and maybe start attending the church! Well see.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE my Armada! Seriously this is the best SUV EVER! I already told Sean that when it comes time for me to get a new car (which will be years from now and the next new car is his) that I just want another Armada!

I have huge walls now and it has been kinda hard to figure out what to do with all that space. But what I am thinking is I want to do is a clock wall. Weird??? O well! That's what I want so I'm gonna try it. I have been looking up clocks all weeks. I don't want the normal clock you can find at Walmart I want older different looking clocks! I want clocks with character. I want about 8-10. The hunt is on. Antique stores here I come!

This really isn't anything new its just becoming more of an addiction. Sean and I love going Antique shopping. But with Eviee wanting to touch everything and not wanting to sit in a stroller for hours we don't get to go very often. So with that being said I stick with Hobby Lobby HA! I know they are not antiques there but I look for the things that look like there are. I have been checking out craigslist but those people are insane!

I have a Keurig and have had it for awhile now. I love k-cups I love that all I have to do is open and drop! But my mother being the coffee holic that she is thinks those k-cups cost too much $$$ so she bought me those reusable k-cups. Well I was all like "o thanks mom" thinking yea these are never getting used. Then I thought my mama bought them for me the least I can do is use it once so I can tell her I did, LOL. I bought Maxwell house coffee. I got up went to the coffee pot fixed it all up and was preparing myself for not so great coffee but to my surprise it was the best cup of coffee I have had in a while!!!!!! LOVE! Thanks mom. Now do they make Maxwell house k-cups??? Not sure I have ever seen any but whatever Ill use my reuseables~!

 Nope I don't make my own laundry detergent. You would think that after my All natural cleaning supplies post huh??? NOPE!!! At least not yet. But what I am loving is these drop ins.  Your really beginning to see just how much of a convenience kind of girl I am huh?????

Well that's enough for one Friday!!!!!!!!! Have a great one!

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

From Ree too Dee Entry 5


If you were to ever ask Sean what his favorite meal is (at least that I make) he would say Chicken and Dumplings. Seriously the man needs help. He is a Chicken and Dumplings addict!!! He wants me to make them all the time!

So naturally one of my first few meals to make from Ree would be her dumplings. I made these last night.

I didn't follow the recipe exactly.

The Recipe calls for one whole chicken (RAW).  I went to Walmart and I bought a rotisserie ALL READY COOKED chicken. (this is what I always buy when I make MY Chicken and Dumplings). I am not about to get all up in a RAW Chickens business if you know what I mean but if you are the type of person that likes messing with RAW pieces of meat HA!!!! then you just got right ahead and  do it. I do not! LOL ;)

So I bought the already cooked chicken and shredded it! (this is almost as bad as it being raw).
I then cut up and cooked the onion, carrots, and celery then added the chicken broth along with the chicken. I did not use the Apple cider because my dumb Walmart did not have any.

I also might have made a little bit more dumplings :)

So over all my house smelled as I imagined Ree's does when she is making this for her family.
Sean got home from worked walked in the door and was ready to devour the whole pot right then and there.
I served both of us but was quick to take the first bite. I want to make sure my food isn't going to kill anyone!!!

 IT WAS PURE BLISS!!! It was like eating on a cloud made of dumplings. I WAS IN LOVE WITH THE DUMPLINGS! But....

She uses Turmeric in this recipe and it is very powerful. I may or may not have put just a tad bit more then if called for. Over the next few bites the taste of pure bliss shifted. It was almost like you know when you are trying to swallow a pill and it gets suck in your throat. You get that weird not so wonderful taste in your mouth. YEA that's what it tasted like after a while.

Sean was NOT IMPRESSED AT ALL! He said he will always chose my Chicken and dumplings over these any day! Good hubby :)

I could eat these again if I had too if was definitely not the worst thing I have ever tasted. Maybe I will try and make them again and go EASY with the Turmeric.

From Ree too Dee Entry 4

Chicken Fried Steak with Mashed Potatoes black eyed peas and corn!

So I was looking through the recipes trying to decide on what to make this week for "Ree too Dee" when Sean said "Chicken Fried Steak".

This was a real treat to him because I do not EVER fry anything! Lap Band plus fried foods equals NOT GOOD!!!  I never fried anything at home even before I got it. Fried foods are not good for you AT ALL but damn they taste SOOOO FREAKING AMAZING! I mean seriously you can fry anything and it would be great! Ok ok im calming down.

So TWO night ago (sorry been busy) I made Ree's Chicken fried steak with her creamy mashed potatoes and I added black eyed peas and corn. (nothing special about them, I just opened the bag)

The steak was pretty good (I personally am not a big fan of chicken fried steak) but honestly I HATED the mashed potatoes! SORRY REE :(

I didn't get any pictures last as my camera has decided to die :(

Entry 4= I don't think I will make this again... unless Sean wants it ;)

Monday, March 4, 2013

From Ree too Dee Entry 3


Ok so Ree's recipe is for Blackberries but I watched the show where she made this and she said to use any berry you want, so yesterday today I chose blueberries. Eviee loves blueberries so I always have fresh on hand. As you noticed I said yesterday... yea I made it yesterday but I didn't have time to post it.

P.S. I kinda have already made this like alot few times.

So really on this recipe it is so easy ANYBODY can do it! Perfect simple last minute dessert for those unexpected guest. Do you get unexpected guest??? I don't but everyone that knows me knows they better give me a heads up! LOL

Anyways try this y'all it Delicious!

Fresh is always best

Sprinkled with sugar

Ready for cooking


Topped with a little Vanilla Ice Cream and whipped cream maybe???? MMMMMMM!

Sunday, March 3, 2013


These last few days have been a little rough,with some fun, then a little rough again, with a few touches of so stinking cute!

So the rough part. Eviee had a BAD sounding cough for like two days then it went away then came back with a vengeance! I took her to the doctor. Long story short her doctor is pretty sure that she has asthma. And I kinda think it's the puppies. See when she was born we had a poodle. But it seemed as Eviee got bigger and had more contact with our poodle she would get a running nose and sneeze and you know allergies type stuff. We went to Texas for a few days and while we we gone Eviee was perfect. Then we returned home and it all started again. So needless to say we got rid of her.(the poodle LOL) Well over the next several months we started letting Eviee get around other peoples animals and she seemed to be doing ok. So we moved out here to the "country" (if you can call it that) and decided to get a dog dogs. Then it hit me the other day. Eviee has pretty much been sick non stop since right after Christmas with "allergy" type sicknesses and we got the dogs right after Christmas. So anyways I'm not sure if it is the dogs or she is just going to have her mommas immune system but now we might have to deal with asthma. At least asthma is something I know all to well thanks to my brother and father. Poor baby nothing is worst then a sick baby YOUR SICK BABY!

We had a little fun. Saturday morning we went to The Monkey House with Katie and Lucas. It was Eviee's first time going. I was a little worried that she would get hurt because of all the "bigger" kids that were there running everywhere but she was a trooper and made it just fine. We always enjoy getting together with Katie and Lucas and even though they are a few years apart in age I hope one day they will become good friends. Eviee loved The Monkey House and I am looking forward to taking her back.

Then the rough came back but this time it was mommy who got sick. I think I have a cold. I can not keep from sneezing and coughing and my nose is running ninety to nothing, I feel like a snot nose kid LOL TMI Sorry but this is what is going on so if you don't want to read about my snot then hit that little red x at the top of your screen. Nobody is making you read my blog! But btw thanks for reading! LOL
I know that I am always going on and on about how cute Eviee is and how much I love her but seriously you have no idea unless you are around her. Call me up we will get together so you can see this cute little thing!!!!

 She was SO proud as was mommy that she put her coat on ALL BY HERSELF!!! Yes it is upside down but she is only 19months old people! And she did it ALL BY HERSELF!!!!!!
          Isn't she the cutest little bumble bee you've ever seen!!!!!


Friday, March 1, 2013

Heart full of love

Babies. They are everywhere. EVERYONE is pregnant! Everyone and their grandma are pregnant. No I'm for real they are everywhere!

Its funny how you think you have your mind completely made up and then all it takes is for your friend/friends to get pregnant then all of sudden in a blink of an eye your back on the baby wagon.
It happened that way for me. Within a day I was back on that baby wagon. I wanted to be pregnant again. I wanted to have a newborn again. Newborns are simple amazing little miracles. I could sit and hold a newborn all day. I miss having a newborn. I miss those sweet little noises newborns make. They lay their on you like a bag full of potatoes and they like it! HA! I miss little bitty diapers and clothes. I miss breastfeeding. I miss the smell of a newborn. I miss everything there is to miss about having a newborn.

Why does it happen like that? Before I got married, before I meant my husband I knew I was going to have three kids. That was the plan. I thought I would marry a man a couple of years older then me and we would make three beautiful babies together. But what my plan didn't know was that I would fall in love and one day marry a man who was 12 and half years older then me. And what my plan didn't know was that he would already have three children. And really what my plan didn't know was that the moment the ultrasound technician told me I was going to be having a daughter my heart would feel complete. For years and years my heart longed to be a mother to three beautiful children but in that moment my heart was completely full of love and 100% content in love with the idea of being a mom to a daughter. One daughter. One child. This child would steal my heart more and more each day until there wasn't any other place in my heart for any other children. This is how my heart has felt since I found out I was having a girl March of 2010.

Hey guess what? I'm pregnant! What? Really? OMG I want to be pregnant too!!!!  That's all it takes when all of your girlfriends are pregnant. Even when you have a plan. Even when deep down we know we don't really want another, at least right now. All it takes is an announcement of a new baby
and suddenly everything changes.

Valentines day this year I had it all worked out. Sean had told me when we had Eviee that it was totally up to me whether or not we would have another baby. He told me that he would know I had for sure made up my mind that we were done when I gave him his appointment to go get the ol' snippety snip. So we talked and talked and I thought and thought. I spent hours starring at Eviee and thinking about the life I wanted for her. Thinking about how I love the dynamic of our family, just the three of us. Thinking how I never want Eviee to have fight for attention. Or how I never want to have to tell her mommy can't come to your dance recital because I have to go to your brothers ball game. I never wanted to have to worry about how we would provide for her. We want to send her to private school and put her in tons of activites and lets face it, it is easier with just one child. I could go on and on with all the things I want for Eviee and things I never want to say to her. And all things I have thought we wouldn't, maybe get to do with Eviee if we had more children. My mine has run wild for nine months thinking of all the things we wouldn't be able to give her.

 My heart is worried. My heart is scared. My heart is still so hurt by the lose of my two babies. I'm scared. I am so scared that the next pregnancy is going to end in a miscarriage. My heart can't take loosing another baby. There is no question I can not take loosing another baby! Maybe deep down that's why my heart has felt complete since Eviee. Maybe my heart knows something I don't. I'm scared.

A good friend made a comment. She said the reason she wanted more then one child is because she did not want that child to be alone when her and her husband are gone. That really spoke to me. I have spoken with alot of people who were an only child and they hated it and told me not to do that to Eviee. (yes she has three half siblings but they chose to not be around and we don't think that is going to change).

So two days before Valentines day I was getting ready to make Sean his snippy snip appointment. I was going to write in his Valentines day card something like this " honey I love you so much blah blah blah now go get snipped"! HA! For real something like that. Sean gets home from work two days before Valentines Day and out of the middle of no where he tells me that he thinks we should have one more child! WTH!!!!!

All it takes is for your girlfriends to get pregnant to make you want to be pregnant but the same thing is said when the man you love wants to have another baby with you.

Seeing Sean with Eviee day after day I fall more and more in love with him. He is an amazing father and husband. And you know what I am going to give him another baby! Why shouldn't I??? He wants another baby for us and for Eviee. He spent most of his childhood as an only child and hated it and he doesn't want that for Eviee. He wants her to grow up with siblings like I did. My brother and I don't get along that great but my sisters and I are best of friends and even though he and I don't get along we are always there for each other no matter what and Sean wants that for Eviee. He wants her to grow up with a sibling in the same house as her. He wants her to know what it is like to have everything he didn't. And he really is hoping to have another son. One who he can raise daily. One to be his little side kick but the are going to have to compete with Eviee because she is becoming Daddy's little sidekick these days.

Honestly I would still get him "fixed" (he hates when I say it like that LOL). I am so completely happy with just Eviee but deep down I know that in five to ten years I will regret not having any more children. My plan did not work out the way I planned it. Sean and I will have just one more not two. Unless God has other plans we will get pregnant with one baby. I will one day have two children. One day! But for now Eviee has stolen my heart and my heart is happy. So one day we will have another baby and when baby comes my heart will be stolen again.